Good Morning Campers!!
Hard to believe it's the last day of March ..3 months of the year gone already..it is true that the time goes faster the older you get...
Nothing much going on here..it rained on and off all day yesterday so I wasn't able to get out in the garden... I was restless too.. hubby played in a golf tournament that didn't get over till late so our Friday night out was canceled..I am craving Mexican food now... :-( I watched entirely too much television yesterday and wasted a lot of time doing nothing...hate days like that...
I have been thinking a lot about my Mum..don't know why but I have...sometimes when I think about her I get a physical pain in my stomach that she is gone...it wasn't like I saw her very often but she was always at the other end of the phone if I felt like a chat....I find myself wanting to talk to her more and more...I have a lot more insight in to some of the moods she had and the way she felt the older I get...I like to think I handle things better but I wish I could tell her that I understand how she felt and that I am sorry we all weren't more understanding...I think my Mum felt lonely a lot of the time and that we shut her out.. truth be told we did because she was so awful to be around and so moody but I now know she couldn't help feeling like that...bless her...maybe it's the time of year that reminds me of her.. she loved to be outside in the garden or out walking her dog.. she would love to see what we have done with our garden.. the deck etc.. no one will see it in my family now..I can't see my dad ever coming back over here and my sister doesn't seem interested...well I think she would like to come but her partner and his kids prefer a resort...maybe my brother might come again...anyway I need to shake myself out of this mood because it's not doing me any good thinking about all this..guess I am just homesick..was nice to get the thoughts out though..
I am glad the sun is back out today..we are off to the garden centre again to get some plants for the flower beds...maybe lunch out.. I may be going to the high school tonight one of our friends daughters is in the Miss OPHS pageant tonight...go Kat!!!
Have a lovely Saturday!
L
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yup Its nice out now forsure and our grass has greened up.
its hard when they get older our parents. Mine is getting alzhiermes and she at that stage now where you cnat make her do anything she needs to and wont do what would help her be more livable and tolerable. Alzhiemers makes you mean. its very hard and the feelings are very confusing.
Hey girl..I know this feeling you are talking about with Mum...I miss my Mom some days so bad...I get physically and emotionally ill....and she has been gone 22 years now....the missing gets tucked away....but comes out from time to time....and that is ok....I try to think of all the good stuff...but the bad comes out too....nothing we can do about that is there....just try to be the person Mom would want me to be!!!...but we manage...right???? hugs to you from KY...Ora
Sorry you've been feeling down hope the sun brightens your mood. It is lovely and sunny here but there is still an icy chill in the wind.
Debbie xxx
I totally get missing your mom. I feel it too, I just want to pick the phone up like I use to and hear her voice.
Enjoy your Saturday!
hugs,
E.
Awww well of course you would miss your Mum bless ya - I would be the same - I dont know how I would cope. Lane xxx
So sorry to hear about you missing your Mom so much. Don't be too hard on her for the moodiness, some of us cannot help it...lol. I'm sure she never wanted to be that way and loved you completely. Oh and thanks... Now I want mexican food...lol...
I'm so sorry to hear that. I would miss my mom as well. Mine is very moody now too, and I catch myself at times and have learned lessons from it. I understand her better. Hugs being sent to you. xxxx
Lisa
I'm so sorry... when I lived in TX I missed my family more then I could ever say. I'm home now and can't imagine being away from them... and my Mom... oh I'd miss her beyond belief. Hugs to you my friend I wish there was something I could do.
d
http://journals.aol.com/nightmaremom/Thisandthatandhockey/
I know how you feel, I would love to be able to talk to my Dad, now I am older, more mature and less of a prat. (one T or 2? LOL) But you have your children and I think that like me, you have been a better Mother because you had grown up with a less than perfect Mum, which made me strive not to make the same mistakes she made. Considering mine were both difficult children, I am very happy with the relationship I now have with them and I know they are happy with me, as they actually tell me so. That is beyond price.
Hugs,
Linda x.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/lindaggeorge/GeorgeMansions/
Hope you have a beautiful weekend...yep, it is the last day of the month...enjoy April...hugs and love,
Joyce
Dear Lyn,so sorry you are missing your Mum and feeling homesick ,hopefully us UK gals keep you in touch a bit ,love Jan xx
sorry you are missing your family..mine doesn't live as far away as yours, but I feel the same...I would love to have a cup of coffee with my mom & just enjoy her company. Funny how as we grow older we view ourselves as our own moms and reflect on why or how they did what they did...Our children will do the same...
Hugs to you Lyn......
Michele
Sorry you are missing your mom Lyn. I am telephoning mine tommorrow afternoon and it only makes me appreciate that I am able to do it all the more. I get homesick and lonely over here at times as well. Nobody from my family has ever come over here..well I lie...I did pay to bring two of my son's over once and the youngest one over twice. But I'm afraid unless I am the one who coughs up the moolah to do it...I don't get to see any of them...sigh.
Hugs,
Marie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/mariealicejoan/MariesMuses/
((((((((((Lyn)))))))))))) I miss my mums too. I am sorry the rest of your family is so far away.
loving you
karyl
I am back in my hole again. Bad day.
you know, well, this is insane but when i need to talk to Jessie, i wait until i go to bed and talk. Outloud. You could talk to your mom that way if you wanted. When you are lounging at the pool reading the books. I believe they hear us. Then again,i am insane.
It is raining here and pretty chilly. I hope you get that Mexican food.
LOVE YOU
lisa
my mum has turned intoa kid and now im the adult but i think she realises after her kidney transplant that life is too short, just have fun and live each day as you wish.Beckie.xx
Hope your enjoying your saturday.
Missie
When we love someone they are never far from our hearts, even when they have passed on. Who is to say you can't still talk to your Mom. She is right there in the center of you, just talk to her hon, tell her all the things you want to. I'm betting she already knows those things. Did you really think they would leave you? I tend to believe they stay with us, albiet it's in our memories and our hearts. As for your Deck and Garden life is way too short to worry about someone else seeing it and enjoying it. Live and enjoy simply for you , all the rest falls in place over time. (Hugs) Indigo
Hi Lyn,
Sometimes it just feels good to get your feelings off your chest. I'm hoping that makes you feel better and not worse. We all love you and adore you here in J-Land. Your a very special lady and have done your very best, which is great!
When I lost my Mom to cancer on April 30th, 2005 I had some of the same feelings and we were CLOSE. And you Mum and mine were two totally different people. I had a close and loving relationship with my Mom and I thank God for her everyday. Of course she wasn't perfect, none of us are, but she was a joy.
And yes I agree it's shocking that's it is already the end of March and into April we go! This year is flying right bye. And pretty soon (11th) I will be a whole 43 years old.....YIKES!!! But I don't mind getting older one bit, I like it actually and I'm having a great time in life.
Have a great Saturday.
Huggers,
Gayla
THe way you describe your relationship with your mum is very similar to that of me and my dad. Like you, the older I get the more I understand him. I wish I could tell him that.
B. x
Hugs - sorry that you are missing your mum so much. Its a shame that your dad won't be able to make it over and that your sister doesn't come. Maybe you could fit a trip in over here? We could have a journal land get together! Hope you have a great weekend. Terry x
Well I can't wait to see your new deck!
well think about it this way your mom was there when you needed her and still is you just can't talk to her is all but she is allways there for you
oh and faries rock=)
Sorry to hear you are homesick for the UK and your mum. I think about my mum daily and talk to her photo. Why don't you come over here for a short break. You could meet up with all of us from J-land! Love Conniexxx
I agree Lyn it is hard to believe that three months of the year has gone already ~ Sorry you are feeling a bit down remembering your Mum but I think she is there watching over you ~ I am also sure she knows that you understand how she was ~ Try to remember the happy times ~ hope your Dad will be able to make a visit to see you but at least you can chat to him on the phone ~ It is a beautiful sunny and warm day here today March came in like a lion but it has gone out like a lamb ~ hope for lots more sunny warm days to come ~ Ally x
March is gone? Holy cow where did it go? Is there anyway you can call your mum? I know that the calls over seas are expensive...... send us some rain!
Kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom
Sorry to hear that you were feeling down :( It's such a shame your family won't come over to see you. Hope they will change their minds one day xx
Jenny
http://journals.aol.co.uk/jmoqueen/MyLife
Hiya Lyn, If I had family in Florida, I`d be there every other year at least. I hope your family have a change of heart and decide to go over and see you soon.
Love Sandra xxxx
Im sorry you were feeling down! It must be really hard since your mother is gone....I can only imagine. Sometimes I think I take mine for granted and dont realize it. I hope you cheer up soon, I will be thinking about ya!!
Hugs
Carrie
I jsut wanted you to know taht I loved your journal entry about your children and couldn't agree more with you about teenagers. You are an excellent mum and I have no doubt that your children know it too!
Hugs,
Susie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/susanebunn/ItAllStartsAfter50/
It's hard to lose a loved one, especially a Mum. I miss my grandmother, especially at Easter since it's on her birthday this year. Hope you are feeling better! De ;)
I know what you mean about your Mum,its same with my Mum. . .the older I get the more I understand her. . .she died in 1990 and theres so many things I would love to ask about her past and so many places I would love to go with her.
I am reading this, way after you posted it as it's catch up time (good Friday) I hope your pain has gone and the sun is shining even more on your new decking!
Love yas, Gaz xx
i cannot believe a week in april is already over!!! hope that you have a happy easter.
sorry you are so homesick :( missing family
take care
emily
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