Happy Birthday in Heaven...

Every year I re-post this on my Mum's Birthday..


No Happy Returns

Today would have been my mums 74th birthday.

As you know I did not have the greatest of relationships with my Mum.She was moody, miserable, bitchy a lot of the time. She was also very funny, kind hearted, great with old people..would give you the shirt off her back.. great sense of humour..we once almost got thrown off a bus for the uncontrollable giggles caused by a man sitting oppisite us with this huge bandage on his nose..one look at him and her and I were off...it was terrible!! the more we tried to stop the worse it got... LOL She cried at the Waltons and Little House on the Prarie.. she loved dogs..we had a Red Setter called Tramp for 14 years.. she walked him 3 miles every day..sometimes twice...she could do cartwheels, juggle, ride a moterbike, never learned to drive..she tried a few times but always gave up she was way too nervous.. she made Christmas very very special.. she would begin "hoarding" food as early as September..she kept it all under th stairs...she loved Malteasers (english candy similar to whoppers) she smoked..in her later years rolled her own to save money.. I saw her get into at least 3 fist fights with women...she had a terrible temper...one time this girl was after me..said I had been after her boyfirend..my Mum drug her out the pub by her hair and told her she ever so much as looked at me wrong she would be back... ;-) She loved Country and Western music and dancing and slot machines. she was the life and soul of the party and no one would ever believe the way she was at home..she was terrified of Doctors, hospitals and had a morbid fear of choking.. she chewed her food into tiny pieces to avoid that....if we ever got hurt as kids she would go get the neighbours because she would panic......she once knocked two ornaments together while dusting and smashed them and cut her palms badly..she had to have stitches and they pretty much had to put her to sleep to do them..LOL...she was always dusting, hoovering, would come in on a saturday morning when I was trying to sleep in and open the curtains and the bloody windows and start hoovering around me...LOL.. she would spit on a hanky and wipe off my face as a kid ewwwwwwwwww...she was only just 5' tall..she was one of twins..her twin died at birth..she was born in a workhouse..she only weighed 2lb.. she never met her dad he was an alcoholic and died of Cirrosis of the liver.. her family was very poor.. she had 2 sisters and 3 brothers...hr real name was Diana but veryone called her babe as she was the youngest.. I once watched her and her sister get into a fight..my dad and my uncle had to sperate them with a water hose...LOL.. she was very very passionate... she would defend us kids to the very end...looking back I can see we had far more happy times than sad...but when I reached puberty that was it..we fought on and off for years..she semed to be jealous of me..she begrudged me the relationship I had with my dad..she felt like it was us against her...the things she said and did to me were awful..she hit me..she calld me all the names under the sun...she hated with the same passion she loved...but at the end of the day I can say that she loved me and she did her best...she grew up in a time when you didn't talk about womens problems, depression was not an option, I know she suffered from it though, and I know she had a terrible time with menopause but never asked for help... and I can admit I was a typical moody teenager. I just wish things could have been different.. I wish we could have had the kind of relationaship I have with my daughter... that is the one good thing that came out of it..I was determined to not be the way she was...
Anyways...
No Happy Returns Mum...just happy memories till we meet again..night night God Bless....
Lyn

Tuesdays with Lyn....

Good Morning Campers!!

The above picture is my arm..I had an allergic reaction to a wasp sting..I have been stung before..last time I just had minor swelling..this time the reaction was more severe...apparently the reactions can get worse each time...this happened Saturday..I had a little swelling..a little bit of a dull ache..by Sunday Morning the swelling was worse and my arm was getting redder..by Sunday night it was quite painful..I stuck it out because quite frankly who wants to go the ER on Halloween night? But yesterday Morning I really felt crappy..my arm was hot to touch and throbbing..especially if I didn't keep it elevated ..it felt like when they put the blood pressure cuff on your arm too tight..so I gave in and called the base to see if I could get in and they told me to come on up to the clinic..my blood pressure was high...and I was heavier than last time I was there which was...wait for it...2003!!!! I knew I hadn't been to the Dr's for a while but had no idea it had been that long! Anyway the Dr was quite concerned about my arm..my blood pressure etc..he wanted to have me stay and give me IV antibiotics and fluids but I managed to convince him that I would follow the protocol to the Tee at home..(I was in my scrubs as I thought I might go to work so I think that helped convince him because he knew I am in the Medical Field) So I was allowed home with my arm in a sling..Steroids..Antibiotics..Antihistimines...Pain pills and and antacid..and also an Epi pen in case I get stung again and the reaction is worse. He also signed me off work..:-)

So here I am snuggled up in bed with my Laptop..feeling so much better and happy that I went to the Dr. I don't know why I have such a fear of going..one of the reasons I got in to this field was to try and conquer my fear but it hasn't really..I guess I am just one of those people who if I have something wrong I don't want to know..which could be deadly I know...SO..I am going to make a pact with myself in the New Year I will go the DR and have a full physical and get all my female examinations too...I am concerned about my blood pressure..my dad has it and my Maternal Grandma had a stroke too ..

Anyway it is so nice to be home..the weather is very British this morning..cloudy and dull and I can't think of a better place to be than snuggled up here with my Laptop and my books for the day..I am feeling way better but hey if the Dr signed me off work I might as well enjoy it..:-)

Hope everyone is having a good week so far...I shall be doing the rounds this morning..doesn't take long these days..most of us are doing the one liner thing on Face book..which I am guilty of too but I still love blogging..

L xx