TGIT!!!!

Morning campers. TGIT I am off tomorrow ;-) I woke this morning to find that Ernesto has come and gone and we only have some rain to show for it. Thank you god. I hear there's a huge one heading for Mexico though... isn't that unusual on the west coast?? I can't recall one before..Anyway I am just glad we were lucky this time..Katrina was a wake up call for me.. hubby was stationed in New Orleans at the time and evacuated.. the house he lived in was destroyed.. he got relocated to Millington Tennessee and lived in a FEMA trailer for 4 months before coming back to Jacksonville. I did not go with him when he got orders to New Orleans...we felt it was better that he went alone and did the geographical Bachelor thing.. I just could not see uprooting the family for 2 years and , New Orleans is not somewhere I wanted to raise my then 14 year old... he did come home a lot..every other weekend..it was not enough.. it was not good for our marriage..we grew apart and are still working on getting re connected...if I had to do it all over again I would have gone with him...it was financially hard too..we were paying for 2 households..he did not get extra money to live apart from us...that was our choice..they would have paid to move us... I did enjoy going to visit New Orleans though.. I probably would have never gone if he hadn't been there though so I am glad for that... the city is magical..I hope the magic is still there..

I am working today..day 3 this week...the 12 hour days kill me..but I am enjoying the work.. we have a lot of fun..we are getting busier which is good ..we have only been open since December.. the baby came by for a visit yesterday.. she is so delish!! chubby little thing and just so good.. not a peep out of her...lucky girl having both parents Doctors..they are a beautiful family..the other Dr's wife is pregnant too... baby city!!

Well I need to get a move on here.. it's dark and drizzly and looks like England out there... ;-)

L

My five..

1. Ernesto was a bust..

2..Indian food for lunch yesterday..we got taken to lunch by a drug Rep... all the docs love Indian food so that was a treat for me..not many Indian places around here and I love a good curry...stinky office in the afternoon though!!  ;-)

3...Ryan's teacher being so cool and understanding and for him telling me what am awesome kid Ryan is.. I know he ain't perfect but he is GOOD dammit...

4.... Emails from hubby..too funny..he wants "pics" if you get my drift..I told him get over it!! those days are long gone buddy..LMAO.. you don't have this body memorized by now??

5..... All of you reading this...

Prayers for Di today please..she is going in for surgery #2.. prayers that they get clean margins this time...

 

 

my tattoo

 Several of you asked about it so here is my tattoo..do you know how hard it is to take a pic of your own tailbone...LOL!!!!

Last one today I promise!!!

I don't usually post lyrics to songs but this song is amazing..have you heard it yet?? I can absolutely relate to this and just had to share...

HINDER LYRICS

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

Hat trick from Hatfield ;-)

Three entries in one day.. woo hoo!! yes I am back to my usual witty charming self..whoever took over my mind and body for the past few days has left the building and taken her moods with her..thank you Sybil!!

I hate being a woman sometimes..these moods just wreck havoc with your life. I open my mouth and can't believe what comes out of it! I fly off the handle for no reason, cry over absolutely nothing, eat anything that hasn't gone off..probably would eat it even if it had! and make everyone's lives around me miserable!!!! All in the name of hormones. Do guys feel like this too?? Stevie? Gaz? Adam?? Hadon? Phil? Mike? anyone want to answer that? I don't think we give the guys credit sometimes...they have hormones too..I know for a fact that Lester gets 2 periods a month...LOL But seriously it does seem we women suffer from the mood swings a lot more than the guys... and it's not just PMS...

Okay enough about my moods...so I worked yesterday..I am enjoying my job more and more..as I only work 2 days a week it has taken me a while to feel totally comfortable with everything..there are a lot of tests and procedures that I don't get to do very often and therefore are not comfortable with..but I think I finally have everything down pat..yesterday I was the only MA there with 1 Dr. and everything went smoothly...I did several tests and no problems...I  handled all the patient calls etc.. I was at the other clinic for over 3 years so was totally confident there...but it's finally starting to feel like "home' at the new place..ANd I have talked them into letting us wear blue scrubs..baby blue..the other colour was beige..boring beige..the colour of your skin beige...eww!!!! So now we can alternate..yay!!

My son just called me from the school bus..he leaves at 6.30 am and now it is 7.50 am and they have not made it to school yet!!! less than 3 miles..must be an awful wreck somewhere...he is miserable..no Air Con. on the bus and it is 90 degrees already...

 

I will keep you posted on the Tropical Storm/Hurricane..so far so good...I think we'll be okay this time..

have a good Tuesday... no need to list my five today..see previous entry...  ;-)

L

A few of my favourite things...

Here are a few of my favourite things..sang in my best Julie Andrews voice ;-)....in no particular order..totally free flowing here...

The smell of babies

Hot tea

Ice cold orange juice no pulp

Mexican food

Drive thru windows

candles

Christmas lights

John Fredia shampoos and conditioners

Belly laughs

Halloween costumes and little kids...

Candy apple and caramel suckers

the ocean

the beach

the sound of the waves

sunrises

sunsets

swimming pools

books

journals

the Internet

hot showers

hand written letters

Magazines

perfume

flip flops

cappuchino

pens

puppies

fairly lights

fairies

cemeteries

churches

movies

TV

cell phone

watches

clean house

clean laundry

fabric softener

freshly made bed with clean sheets

smell of clothes dried outside

day dreaming

stretching

hot bubble baths

comments in my journal   ;-)

diet coke

making someone smile

letting people out in traffic and getting a wave in return

freshly cut grass

my family

I could go on and on...but I gave my self 5 minutes to just write free style.. love my thought process...LOL

 

L

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh no another quiz!!!! '-)

Morning campers, I got this in an  email but decided to post my answers here...

 

1.What time is it?   6.55 am EST 

 

2. Do you wear clip-on or post earrings?  Pierced 3 in one ear 2 in other 

 

 3. What are you most afraid of?  something happening  to my kids

 

   4. What is the most recent movie that you've seen in a cinema? break up

 

   5. Have you ever seen a ghost?  Yes I believe I have

6. Where were you born? Bicester Cottage Hopital Bicester England

 

7. Favourite food?  Mexican

8. Ever been to Alaska? Never

9. Ever been toilet papered?  No but they egged the house (american tradition at graduations, halloween etc they will "decorate" your house and trees with toilet paper)

 

10. Have you loved someone so much it made you cry? Most definitely

11. Been in a car accident?  Yes only minor thank God

 

12. Croutons or bacon bits?  Croutons

13. Favourite day of the week? friday

14. Favourite Restaurant? La Nopalera

15. Favourite Flower?  Lavender roses amd Orchids

16. Favorite sport to watch? Soccer or gymnastics

 

17. Favourite Drink? ice cold beer

19. Disney or Warner Brothers?  Warner

 

20. Favourite fast food restaurant?  Mc Donalds or Taco hell  ;-)

21. What colour is your bedroom carpet?  sage green

 

22. Before this one, from whom did you get your last email?  Lisa Jo

 

24. What do you most often do when you are bored? Internet

 

25. What time is Bedtime? 11

26. Who will respond to this quiz the quickest? Whoever wants to

 

27. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond?....Phil

 

28. Who is the person that you are most curious to see their responses?

Hadon cuz he's ignoring me  ;-)

 

29. What is your favourite TV show? Real World, Dog Bounty Hunter, Miami Ink, British version of Shipwrecked..

 

30. Ford or Chevy? Ford

31. What are you listening to right now?  Birds outside waking up

 

32 What are your favourite colours?  purple, Lavender grey, brown

 

33. How many tattoos do you have? one

 

 34. How many pets do you have?  One dog one fish

 

35. If you could go anywhere, where would you go?  Australia

36. What would you like to accomplish before you die? Live my life to the fullest and have no regrets

 

37. How many people are you sending this quiz  to?   all of you reading it...LOL

 

38. What characteristics do your friends have to have?  Sense of humour, loyalty, and definitely be non judgemental

39. Month and date of your birth? march 18th

 

and because I can't leave it at 39 I am making up #40

 

40. What colour eyes do I have??  ;-)

Sunday

Hi there. Sunday Sunday. Sorry to hear about that plane crash.. my prayers go out to the families of the victims..how sad to be at the airport in Atlanta waiting on your loved ones only to hear their plane has crashed. Not to mention the hurricane.  I was just saying it's been a quiet season. Hopefully this one will not be too bad. I hate all the hype..the TV will talk of nothing else for the next week or so and will work everyone up in to a frenzy.. yes I know they have a job to do but it gets OLD fast.

 I have had a productive morning so far. Been grocery shopping, came home put it all away and took Ryan to get some more shirts...Bealls was having a sale so we took advantage. have done  3 loads of laundry and vacuumed.. not to shabby considering I was a total slug yesterday and did nothing!!

My friends hubby came and cut the grass this morning.. I can't tell you how happy that makes me!! It's going to rain again later too... so I won't have to water...

Well that's all folks..not a very exciting entry but it is what it is... ;-)

Hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday... Stevie doobie doobie do where are you???

L

rachel

Can't forget true beauty..;-)

Ryan

My "little" man....

Happy Days!!! Pics...

Happy days...my beach trip last week...

M.I.A.

Good Morning Campers. Sorry I have been M.I.A. I have been in such a mopey mood I just didn't have anything nice to say and so like the saying goes..if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all....maybe it's PMS.. maybe it's the fact that I am missing hubby, maybe it's because my best friend in the whole world sent me this...

Hi Guys,

Thought you might like an update, and please excuse the email, but its the quickest way to spread the news. Please pass the info on to anyone who might be interested.

My appointment was yesterday. The good news is that the cancer has not spread to the lymph nodes and so is contained in the breast.  The not-so-good news is that they have to go in again to take some more out (this is not unusual), and that will be followed by c.5 mths of chemo and c.5 wks of radiotherapy. But hey, even that is okay, cos it's only surgery and I recovered well last time, and I still have 'ample' that they can take
from..... LOL !!! You gotta laugh about it!!!

So the op is next Thursday 31st, and then I think the chemo will start about 2 wks after that.   I am still feeling really well and positive, it helps to have good friends and family around keeping me in good spirits.  I'm gonna
enjoy the next week or so, feeling as well as I do, before the next stage starts.  I will try and email you or text after the op.

Mum or Mike (my nurses !!!) are always here so you can always phone the landline for news, hey I might even get off my arse and answer the phone myself sometime !!!

Bless her heart she is trying to sound cheerful and keep upbeat but I know she is scared to death and I just wish I could be there for her and help out. Prayers and good thoughts would be appreciated...Di is such a good person she is one of those people who just lights up a room when she walks in it. Her spirit is amazing. She is selfless in her ways..always putting others first..even now her biggest concern is for her partner Mike and her Mum. It just hurts me so deeply that she has to go through this..sometimes life just isn't fair... but Di has told me we should not question God and that he never gives us more than we can bare but I am struggling with that...

Okay enough of all that..

Saturday..it's raining..it has been raining for 2 days now and it has put me in the cozy, here comes fall mood.. yesterday I went for a little retail therapy  ;-).. to one of my fav. stores..Pier 1..I was a little disappointed... they have changed there style and it's all dark wood and black and white and steel... not my thing..but I did manage to spend $180 anyway!! Mostly on candles and some scented reeds and sprays and a couple of ceramic Pumpkins and Gourds.....my house smells delish right now!! Looks very cozy with the candles lit and the rain outside...

I heard from the hubby... he is fine... he is going sight seeing today.. he has been busy with all the Chief Selectee stuff this week so is ready for a little R and R... we are 14 weeks away from him coming home...can you say countdown?? Once it gets to about 8 weeks then we can get really excited and I will go into panic mode for all the things I said I would get done while he was gone and didn't..ha!

Well that's all from me this morning..I am playing catch up on my alerts...sorry I haven't been commenting much... hope everyone has a great weekend...

L

My five...

1. Woke up feeling almost human this morning... ;-)

2.. My cozy little house...

3...Green grass.. thanks to the rain...

4....E mails...

5..... Cadet.. he has been extra snuggly lately.. he sure picks up on my moods ..bless him...

The grass is greener....

Wednesday. Hump Day!! I have to work today and tomorrow. Things are a little tense at the office these days and probably will be till the office manager leaves. They are treating her rather shabbily in my opinion and I am not happy. Just because she's leaving doesn't mean they have to take it as a personal insult..people come and go in the work place..get over it!!  I wish her all the best and know this was a hard decision for her and their behavior is not helping.

Still haven't talked to the hubster but have had an email from him so I know he's okay.. it's difficult with the time difference..he is 6 hours ahead of us and when I get home he is asleep and vice versa...

Nothing much happening in Lyn's world. I did have a brain wave though..alert the media..lol..I am tired of doing the yard work..Ryan helps a lot but we are both over it ..we having been mowing at least twice a week all summer..not to mention the weed wacking, edging, trimming etc. well hubby gave me his friends number to call to have him do it..then I got to thinking..my friends hubby owes me money.. yes I am a sucker sometimes and do stupid things like lend friends money...well this was well over a year ago and he has made no attempt to pay it back so I asked if he would like to pay it off in kind (bet he thought his luck was in aye? ) and so for the next 10 weeks he will be doing the yard work for me...yay!! wish I had thought of this earlier in the summer..ha! so hence the colour of my entry today..lawn green..lush if I do say so myself..and it rained last night so I can see it growing as we speak and I don't have to worry about cutting it this weekend..neener neener neener!! LOL!

Kids are doing good..Ryan is hating school..not really but you know what I mean.. not his fav. place to be but like I told him something we all had to do..I just wish he would try harder..he's going to regret this when he is older but you can't tell them huh?? You only get one chance at this and he is blowing it... <sigh> he does enough to scrape by and that is it...Rachel is back at college in the evenings..she is only a couple of credits short of getting her Associates degree...her and her brother are like night and day..she has worked since she turned15, got her license on her 16th birthday.. works full time to pay for her 2005 Toyota..I keep waiting for Ryan to mature.. I am not worried about him not driving...in fact I am glad he's isn't he is too immature to handle that anyway...but I would like to see him get a little part time job, gain some confidence and responsibility...

Sorry Ryan rant over...

Okay I need to get going here.. get a shower and head to work..you guys have a great "Hump Day"... no chance of me humping I can tell you that... ;-)

L

my five...

1. My kids.. they are who they are and I love them unconditionally..no matter what...

2.. Great day off yesterday..tanned by the pool (looks at Gaz) read my book, puttered about the house..grilled steak and shrimp on the barbie..my kind of day

3... $15 off coupon from Yankee candle..think they read my Blog?? LOL

4.... Gas is down to $2.79 a gallon..sorry to my friends across the pond..we have nothing to complain about, they pay almost $10 a gallon in some places...

5..... All of you as always reading this...

Cults ;-)

A lot of you have asked me about the cult comment. Well it's a long story...

A few years back...maybe in 1999 or 2000 I happened upon a message board.. a place to post your gratitude..it was linked from Oprah's boards..Oprah had this show about listing your 5 things each day that you were grateful for and from there a message board formed..I joined this board with the sole intention of listing my gratitude..I liked the idea of finding the positives in my daily life..it became way more than that.. there were a group of ladies that became very good friends..they began to arrange get togethers in the "real" world.. and that is where it all went wrong..from the first get together that I was aware of but did not attend things changed..there was the inevitable talking about the women behind their backs.. I was a part of this group... my hubby called it a cult...he could not understand how I could be such good friends with these women that I had never met..he thought I was obsessed with them.. and I guess I was..to an extent...like I said I did not go to any of the face to face get togethers but I was very active on the board... after a few years and several fallings out between the women a new board formed..more fallings out resulted in it becoming an e mail only format to keep out those who were not "invited" It was all getting a little too "clique" like for me.. I began to drop out.. I didn't post so much.. I felt uncomfortable...fast forward to 2005..there was supposed to be this "reunion" in Orlando Florida..now there was no getting out of that one as I lived so close... well as the time got closer the "head" of the "cult"  decided that she didn't want a certain member of our group to attend and wrote to me to ask me to not include this person when replying to email pertaining to the upcoming get together... she would not however tell this person herself..she just ignored her..the person being ousted asked me why she wasn't getting any of the group email.. I gave the "cult" leader a chance to tell this girl for herself..she wouldn't so I told her that I had been asked to not include her in the email..well as you can imagine it got very ugly..they were furious that I "outed" them..but I could not let this happen.. I tried to give them the chance to tell her themselves.. I did not have a problem with this person..she was my friend and I am a loyal person..just because someone has a problem with you I am not going to just jump on the bandwagon.. I form my own opinions.. I am not one to judge... well there was a lot of denial and a lot of BS flying around.. I decided to end it for once and for all..I forwarded the email  that I had received asking me not to include this person...as you can imagine that was the end of my relationship with these women... I do not regret it.. I had to stand up for what I believed was right and defend my friend. She is still my friend...she reads my blog.. her name is Traci..  Click here: buttrrflyyz

She is an incredible lady who has been through the wringer and still comes out smiling.. Not only is she gorgeous she is an awesome Mum, can sing like you would not believe.. I have a CD that she made...she has such an old soul, she recently lost both her parents to cancer... she is for real... I think Traci had a harder time than me with all this. She was in the group long before me and had been to some of their get togethers... they hurt her real bad and that still angers me...I have to admit I was hurt in all this too but my philosophy is that we have to take something positive from all our experiences and not look back. Traci darling I  do not regret it.. I would do it again in a heartbeat..they were wrong girl... you know that right??  you better dammit!! ;-)

So that's the whole cult thing...not really a cult but you get the drift...hubby just called it that and it stuck..even after the girls would write to him when he was on deployment he still thought it was all a little to weird for him. When all this happened he was shaking his head saying "you don't even know these women" well he was right about that.. I didn't know them at all.....

L

Monday Morning

Good Morning and Happy Birthday/Anniversary to J Land!!! I did attend the early version of the celebrations.. I missed the big "ol USA party though!!! Hope you guys had some fun for me... ;-) I enjoyed chatting with everyone and can't wait for Stevie to fill me in on the rest today..and you know what I am talking about..if you don't your Mum does.. ;-)

I had an awesome weekend. the beach house was lovely..the ladies were fabulous..we all got along great.. the weather was perfect...the ocean was magnificent.. we walked 3 miles on the beach each morning...we laughed, talked, confessed a few things  ;-) ate and drank way to much...it was a perfect girls weekend away and just what I needed..the house was fine while I was gone.. my son did not have any parties or anything either  ;-) I will post pics later.. we all had a pact ..no bathing suit pics...LOL

Haven't spoke to hubby in a few days...hope all is well with him...I am sure it is.. he is traveling a lot and can't always tell me where and sometimes it's spur of the moment as well...

The weather is cooling a little.. I just went outside to put some water in the pool..it evaporates in the heat...and it was actually chilly walking on the wet grass.. a sign that fall is on it's way...yay!!!

Okay campers that's all from me... you know me and Monday Mornings..you're lucky to get anything at all  ;-)

L

My five...

1. The beach!!

2..Friends...The group of women I was with this weekend are from all ethnic backgrounds, all ages, (24-62) etc. and we would probably not be friends if we had not met at work... we are all so different however we had an incredible time together and I feel blessed to have been included..

3...Got to have a quick beer and play catch up with my best friend last night...he is me in the male version I swear..LOL

4.... Spending time in the Yankee Candle Store..they have their fall stuff out and it smells so good..like a smorgasboard for your nose..I couldn't work there though..would have a major headache by the endof the day from all that scent....

5..... J Land.. I am one of the newcomers.. I started my Journal online on April 17th.. in the short time I have been here I have made some incredible new friends..I get so much more from you all than I would have ever imagined...I am blessed to be here..even if it is a cult... ;-)

Love story

In response to several comments to the Jilted post I am writing our "love story".. this one is especially for my new friend Shermeen  ;-)

http://hometown.aol.co.uk/shermeen0621

 

Short version of Lynda and Lester....part one...

 

We started dating when he was 18 and I was 15 . We got engaged on my 17th birthday..were supposed to be married June 21st 1980 when I would have been 18. You know what happened there....we were still so much in love and even though he had commited the worst of the worst sins in a relationship I did not look at it like that.. I was so young and so naive..all I wanted was him. My parents could not understand and so I moved out to live with him.. we had many problems..we broke up a lot.. eventually I moved out and was living in a house with a bunch of people..him and I were still seeing each other though. Well, he decided to join the USN after a visit to USA to see his older brother who was already in the service. (their dad is American, he married a lady from UK when he was stationed over there, so all the kids had dual passports.)  So Lester joined the navy and left in Feb 1983. he called me from flight school in Pensacola and asked me to marry him and come over here. At first I said no because I thought he was just lonely and homesick and missing me. But he kept on and on and he said he had some leave coming up and wanted us to marry then. I said yes. We had 3 weeks to arrange the wedding. I told my parents who were not too thrilled but at this point I think they knew that pretty much nothing could keep me and Les apart so they resigned themselves to it. They were not happy about me moving 3000 miles away though..I was only just 21. So he came home 3 weeks later and we got married. I moved in with his parents because the environment I was living in was not so good for a married woman..and we thought I would be joining him in USA soon. That was not the case. I applied for my visa to reside in the USA. I failed the first medical. I had whooping cough as a child and have terribly scarred lungs.. I had to explain and document the state of my chest xray. I eventually cleared all the requirements and he came home on leave in Nov. 1983 and I went back with him. We had nothing but $500 in out pockets...

TGIF and being Jilted....

Good Morning campers!! It's Friday!! woo hoo!! You know what that means huh?? Yep I am off to the beach for the weekend with the girls..we plan to tan, play some cards, tan some more, drink some cold ones, eat junk food and talk our pretty little heads off ;-) I just want to relax, walk along the beach read my book write in my  Journal and enjoy the ocean. I have decided I cannot let the bastard that broke in to my house put me off going away for the weekend.My friend is going to park his car in front of my house to deter people and make it look like I have visitors..I told Ryan if anyone asks where I am to say I am home and driving Lesters truck as mine is being fixed, I can't wait to get my alarm system installed. No word from the detective or the insurance.

Didn't write an entry yesterday. Nothing much going on. Air-conditioning tune up went okay..couldn't find and mechanical reason why the air doesn't seem to be working very well on the kid's side of the house..he said it might be the ducts collapsed or pinched up in the attic but of course that is not part of a routine visit so if it doesn't improve the installation guys will have to come check..Ryans orthodontic visit was uneventful, ran a few errands..that's about it. Got a couple of cute tops and shorts on sale ... can't go away for the weekend without buying something new to wear (looks at Ainz again )

I was reading back in my written Journal last night and decided to share an entry. I don't know if I told you or not but hubby and I were supposed to be married a couple of years before we actually did. This entry was written about that. WARNING. Profanity ;-)

I got jilted. 3 weeks before my wedding. My fairy tale wedding. Complete with white Rolls Royce. Lester worked nights back then on the base in England. I called him up to ask for the gift list (no online registry then ) he said I wouldn't be needing it. I thought he was just kidding around and then he said "no really..you won't need it because there isn't going to be a wedding" and that's how he told me. Over the phone. Chicken shit bastard. After going back and forth with me thinking he was playing some sort of cruel joke I finally hung up the phone in hysterics. my mum was screaming at me.She had overheard my side of the conversation and was starting to panic herself. I told her " he doesn't want to marry me" and left. Walked out the front door. Tears running down my face. I went to the pub looking for my brother. I found him in the bar. he took one look at me and knew. I told a couple of people.I drank a couple of stiff drinks and my brother took me home. Tucked me in bed and and laid on top of the bed till I fell asleep. I shared a room with my sister back then and she was crying. The next thing I knew my dad was waking me up. He worked nights at the car factory. He said he couldn't think of a worse thing that could happen to a girl and he held me in his arms and let me cry. then he got on the phone to Lester and demanded he come round. he wanted "the little bastard" to tell me to my face why he didn't want to marry me. So round he comes. He said he just didn't want to. that we weren't ready. That was it. I thought my dad was going to kill him. My Mum gave him an earful..she said some pretty terrible things. I just stood there in my nightie with my head down..I was mortified about the whole thing. My mum demanded we take all the bridesmaids dresses back that very day. And the rings. the dress I had borrowed. She tried to cancel everything but with it only being 3 weeks away they lost all their hefty deposits.  It was fucking awful dredging around town returning all my stuff. To this day I don't understand why she made me do it. She told all the relatives. There was a big meeting with his parents and they agreed to pay for half of all the money lost. Meanwhile Lester and I clung to each other. We were so in love. We just didn't know what the fuck was happening. One minute we're getting married and the next we're not. I think if he had been given a chance he might have just been having cold feet. But my Mum was just hell bent on getting stuff taken back and all that. Then they told me I couldn't see him any more...ever.

Fast forward a couple of months. My life was hell. I was sneaking back and forth seeing Lester behind my parents back because they "forbid" me to see him. I was staying at my best mates house while her Mum and dad were on holiday. We worked together. she had gone in I was off that day. I was trying to tidy up a bit when I came across her diary... we let each other read our diaries all the time anyway so no big deal but that day for some reason I felt weird. Well my curiosity got the best of me and I opened it.. and then I read the real reason my wedding was called off.. my fiance and my best friend were fucking and had been for months. I can tell you that I honestly felt a physical blow to my gut..like someone had just knocked the living shit out of me. I read on and on..times and dates and places they "did" it.. how they used to drop me off first and then go fuck ...I read it all and then read it all again and then I lost it...I cut up all her clothes...I trashed her bedroom.. I wrote slut and whore and bitch all over the mirrors in the house with her red lipstick....then I called Lester on the phone...only to find I had lost my voice.. I could not physically talk... I guess it was shock.. I sat for 2 hours on the kitchen floor crying and dazed until my voice finally came back.. I told him to come over..and I met him at the front door..with a knife...I scared the crap out of him..(good) he was a lot bigger than me and soon overcame me and then I told him and hit him over and over and over again..slapping him and calling him names and crying and screaming..it was so bad..so terribly terribly bad.... but for him I think it was a huge relief...I finally knew the truth....

 

So there you go... my Jilted entry.. obviously I married him anyway..a few years later...there is so much more to this story but we'll save that for another day...

My five...

1. Time heals all wounds.... ;-)

2.. It's Friday the sun is shining and I am off to have a great weekend with the girls....

3... I may have found someone to do my yard..cheaply...yay! Can I get a pool boy too?? ;-)

4....Jello shooters..will let you know how they turn out....

5..... All of you reading this...have a great weekend....

L

Shoes and dress

Oh yeah... the shoes and the dress...the limo got ate by AOHell...someone wanna give me a ride??

Help!!

Help me somebody pleeeze!! I have my oufit (for the Anniversary party) and shoes and even my darn limo..it's all saved to an email..how do I get it on here?? I know I know I am a dummy... shaking head here..I told you I have zero patience...

Thanks in advance...

L

Tuesdays with Lyn

Busy day. Got a lot done. Insurance claim is in. now have to wait and see how much they will give me after my deductible. Have the air-conditioning guy coming out Thursday... the kids rooms are just not getting cool. Trying to plan for the weekend. Nervous about leaving Ryan here on his own. Rachel will be here but is going out Friday night. We'll see. Ryan is okay staying here.. I just have a feeling though and my gut feelings are usually right. I am definitely going to the beach though..even if I don't sleep there I will go for the day. I need to be near the sea. Need a good  long walk to clear my head. I have so much going on inside this head of mine. I am worried to death about Diane.. I sent her a pressie today. We have this Friendship ball that we mail back and forth. Today I filled it with some prayer beads, a little stone with the footprints on it.. a couple of goofy cards.. a breast Cancer awareness badge with a donation made in her honour..we will know Thursday what we are up against. Cancer is rearing it's ugly head too much lately.. in my life alone I have 4 people close to me battling it..dammit...

 I am looking forward to fall and the cooler weather. Fall is like my rebirth. I get a whole new lease on life in the fall. I love the anticipation of the holidays..love the fall scents..Cinnamon and pumpkin and cider...love the lamps switched on against the early evening darkness...candles...casseroles...comfort food.. I am not trying to rush the end of summer..I promise.. just thinking ahead.. ;-) we Floridians live for the fall..after months of heat and humidity we love the temps dipping into the 70's..LOL

Missed a phone call from Big L today...he said he is totally wiped out from all the traveling he's been doing..he is back in Italy now ..at least for a few days..

Kids are fine.. Rachel is back at her regular property..thank god.. Ryan is back in school..so far so good..prayers for a better year please....

Well that's all from Lyn's corner of the world.. what's up in yours??

Have a great evening..

L

My five..

1.A peaceful hour spent in the bookstore..

2..Laundry all done, folded and put away.. (I don't iron :-P )

3... Ste is okay..for now.. bloody NHS....

4.... Unexpected refund check from Bell south...spent it already (looks at Ainz..LOL)

5..... Letting go and letting God...

Pics part 2

More of my pics...making me homesick already...

L

The worlds shortest fairy tale ;-)

The World's Shortest Fairy Tale

       Once upon a time, a girl asked a guy, "Will you marry me?"

       The guy said "No."

       And the girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, drank

margaritas, always had a clean house, never had to cook, stayed skinny, and

never had to share the remote.

       The End.

20 Questions

20 Questions:

 

1. A month before it happens,you're told you're going to lose your memory so how do you prepare for it and do you attempt to regain what you've lost?

I would write down every single thing I did every day from that point on. Video tape. take pics. I would try and gather as much info. from my past too. It's about all you can do.

2. How do you describe your out look on life?

I try to have a positive out look..I am always learning new things and try to improve myself.. I don't look back either only forward.. the past is too painful...

3. You fall in love with your soulmate,decide to get married and then find out that person is going to die soon,do you marry them anyway?

Absolutely.. I would make sure that my soulmate left this earth knowing that he was loved unconditionally and with a smile on his face... ;-)

4. What are three of your favorite ice cream toppings?

Real whipped cream, caramel and nuts...

5. Is there one article of clothing you love to wear no matter how out of style it is?

Overalls... I love 'em!!

6. Is there one color you wish would go away in fashion? Paisley.. I know it's not a colour but I hate Paisley  lol

7. What's the first department you head to when you go shopping in a department store? Womens clothes

8.How far away do you live from your parents?

3000  + miles

 

 9. Growing up who was your favorite cartoon charcter? Jerry from Tom and Jerry

10. You plan a romantic evening and everything goes wrong,including the fancy dinner you made burning,what do you do?

Open the door wearing nothing but a big old smile  ;-)

11. What's the last thing you bought at the store?

Creamer and dish detergent for work

12. Have you ever walked out in the middle of a movie? the only one I remember doing that was "Boogie nights"..flipping crap movie

13. What celebrity do most people say you look like?

Lately it has been Olivia Newton John... I'll take that... lol

14. Is there any piece of jewelry you always wear?

My wedding ring and the ring I took off my Mums finger when she died....

15. Have you ever tried to pick someone up?

back in the day I did..and was successful too... ;-)

16. What's the one thing you always manage to lose on your way out the door?

My sunglasses.. I wear contacts and have to have my sunglasses on to drive.. I live in Florida... ;-)

17. Out of these creatures which one are you most afraid of:

A.) Snakes

B.) Spiders

C.) Rodents

all of the above

18. What's the last gift you bought for a friend?

I took di flowers in the hospital

19. Do you ever buy people things for no reason? Love doing that

20. What's your favorite way to spend a lazy summer afternoon?

Lazing by the pool with a good book and a cold frosty one...

Tag you're it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Answers part 3

1.What's one thing you do that you wish you didn't (habit, etc)

I hate my short fuse. I don't have a whole lot of patience some times. I also shout too much. And I am VERY emotional.

2. What's one thing you've done in your life that you want to be an example to your children, so they don't make the same mistake and have you shared it so they hopefully can avoid that mistake?

I have thought and thought about this one...great question by the way Christy.. and I truly have no regrets.I cannot thing of one thing that I have done that I wouldn't want my kids to do. Maybe I am just missing it and if I think of something I will definitely let you know but as of now I can't think of anything...

3. What's your favorite thing about being a mother?

Just the absolute joy that those crazy goofy kids bring me. The pride I feel when someone compliments me on what a great pair of kids I have. The unconditional love. The miracle that Lester and I actually created these incredible human beings. there is nothing like the sound of the words " I love you Mum "


4.Name one thing that if you could change about your mother you would (when she was alive)?

Her moods. She was awful a lot of the time. She spewed her venom on whoever happened to be near by and it was usually me. She ranted and raved for hours about absolutely trivial stuff. It ruined a lot of family memories. Her nastiness stands out in my mind. there were some good times. But the evil far out weighed  the good. How sad.
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5.Do you miss British teabags?  :o))

Heck Yes!!! Bought me  a couple of PG Tips Pyramid boxes back with me.. ;-)

Sandra xxxx
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6. Why did you come to the United States, and what do you like most about the states?  

I followed my hubby here.. he joined the US Navy and then asked me to marry him and join him over here so I packed up my stuff and left my whole life behind at the age of 21..I love the quality of life here.. the freedom..the opportunities.. the weather  ;-) I am grateful every day for what we have achieved over here...
Missie
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7. How did you meet your husband ??

We grew up in the same village. he had dual passport because his dad is American..that's how he joined the US Navy but he was born and raised in the UK just like me..we went to school together and I had the biggest crush on him!! I would literally faint if he came down the corridor towards me!!! When we first started going out I couldn't even eat in front of him..LOL I had it bad girl!!

Jayne
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P.S. A few of you have asked about Jello shots/shooters...here ya go..you should try them  ;-)

Click here: Jello Shots recipe

L

Mondays Musings

So I got to see hubby. In UK and then again this weekend. Aren't I the lucky one?? ;-) Actually we didn't spend a whole lot of quality time together in UK if you know what I mean. Too many distractions..like family and friends and the lads wanting him to nip down the pub for "one" I didn't mind..it's always that way when we got home... the visit here this weekend was a bonus he was flying back from El Salvador and they let him fly through Jax. We had an okay time. We are stressed I think. Between all the traveling and the jet lag and dealing with the the bloody burglary we did not "connect" and now I feel like shit because God knows when I will see him again. Hopefully before his official return date of December 6th. Oh well nothing I can do about it all now. Just chalk it up to bad timing.But I miss him and I wish we could have had one of those awesome weekends when you are just "on" and connected and all feels right in your marriage. <sigh>

Worked today. Lot of shit going on there too. Office manager gave her notice. Here we go again. It was mentioned to me..I quickly shut that rumour down before it got started.. I do not want to be the office manager...not for all the tea in china. Enjoyed my day though..the patients were all nice...came home cooked some Pasta real quick and now I am here with you all....;-)

No word from the detective yet. Kills me to see the little blighter around the neighbourhood. wish I could wring his little punk neck but I guess I will leave it to the professionals. I think I am handling it all fairly well. No point dwelling on it. Not happy though. Pisses me off. BUT like I said could have been much worse.

So the girls  from the Urgent Care Clinic where I used to work are going to the beach house this weekend. And I am invited. I am in charge of the Jello Shooters. No problem. :-) It should be a great relaxing party hardy weekend. One  more before the summer ends. I need it. I love the ocean. I just want to walk along the sand in the moonlight  ;-)

 

okay I have rambled on enough for one night....you guys have a great evening... I will leave you with my five good things....

1. Boat rides across the lake in the moonlight..

2.. Eating Mexican food, drinking cold Coronas and being with friends again....

3... My hubby.... even if we didn't swing from the chandelier this weekend I know we will ... soon baby I promise.... ;-)

4....My home and all my creature comforts... there really is no place like home..right Dorothy??

5..... All of you... I maybe one of the newcomers but I sure missed you guys when I was gone and I am truly blessed to be a part of J Land....

L

P.S. please say a little prayer for our dear sweet  stevietwain... I know he makes light of it but I am worried about that precious heart of his... I love you babe...take care of you and no more fags...LOLOLOL!!!

ut oh a quiz ;-)

 

 

 

1. Do you say Hi to people you dont know?  yes if the mood takes me.. I am pretty friendly

2. What is the name of the last person you kissed?
my son Ryan

3. Do you still talk to this person?
stupid question

4. Recite a line from a movie.   "There's no place like home.. there's no place like home, there's no place like home"


5. What movie was that from?
The one and only Wizard of Oz

6. Do you play by the rules? sometimes


7. What are you doing this weekend? this upcoming weekend I am going to a girls weekend at the beach..

;-)

8. Do you complain a lot?
yep

9. Have you ever been to Canada?

yes to see my friend tracy who has since passed


10. Do you have a good personality?
Yes if i do say so myself

11. What size would you say your nose is?
average

12. What is someones name that begins with the letter A?

Alan

13. Name someone whose plastic surgery turned out poorly.
hmmm... well I guess Meg Ryan..looks like she got stung by a bee on those lips...yuck

14. Have you ever performed CPR on anyone?
yes on the lady whose life I saved.

15. Name something that falls from the sky.
Snow..I wish it would snow right here right now

16. Are you polite?

most of the time


17. Name a TV show or movie that impacted society.
Oprah

18. Name a song that has the word 'baby' in it.

Baby got back


19. Name your favorite Walt Disney movie.
Snow White

20. Have you ever been scuba diving?
no

21. Name a profession you would NOT like to have.
Proctologist

22. Name someone you know with red hair.
Shay my great nephew

23. Name a popular DJ.
Jazzy Jeff...lol

24. Name something white.
me

25. Are you better at explaining things, or performing them?
performing

26. Have you ever been to a boxing match?
no.

27. Did you ever stutter, or have a hard time pronouncing?  n n n n no oo  o oo ooo.....

28. Do you eat out or buy groceries more often?
I buy the darn groceries and still eat out 

29. What month are many of your friends born in?
all of them

30. If you could have been born a different ethnicity, which one would you have chosen?
latino

31. Name another way to say, "Perfect."
peace

32. Name something you think is disgusting.
snot

33. What is your favorite type of soup?
cream of Tomato

34. Name something that rhymes with the word, "sunny."
bunny

35. Name a fattening food? anything mexican

36. Name something that you are just NOT good at.
driving

37. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
4

38. How do you usually say goodbye to people?
bye.. c ya later..adios..

39. Does your license plate say anything on it?
nope I wanted True Brit but it was taken

40. Name a type of dance?
break

41. Name a type of Martini?  apple

42. Would you rather do dishes or laundry?

laundry....


43. Did you have braces?
no

44. Name someone you are really good friends with.
Uriel, Diane,Jennifer

45. Name something purple.
Barney

46. What is something good about getting older?
confidence

47. And something negative?
wrinkles

48. Name a song you really enjoy.
too many to list here

49. Name someone with the same middle name as you.
my brother and sister.. none..we don't have middle names...lol

50. Name a really good bar or restaraunt.

Six Bells Kidlington Oxford England

Pics ..part one...lol

the first set of pics.. I thought Iwould spread them out a bit..don't want to bore you to tears....;-)

 

L

Answers part 2

1.You want more? Ok..hmmmmmmmm....

What is you NUMBER 1 pet hate??

Lv Stevie

Pet hate?? I would have to say people who judge. We all have baggage. Some peoples baggage is just heavier to carry that's all. no one knows what a person feels like on the inside or what their story is. Do not judge a book by it's cover. treat every person as an individual and how you would want to be treated yourself. Good questions Stevie..thanks babes

2. Hi Lyn,

What do you miss most about England?  :o)

Sandra xxxx
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Fish and chips, cider on tap, sitting in the pub garden on warm summer evenings, walking down the village to get a loaf of bread and stopping to chat to people, jumping on and off buses, beautiful walks in the countryside, canals and barges, people riding bikes, Marks and Spencers, Tescoes,  british bread.. makes the best toast...I could go on and on..and of course it goes without saying that I miss my family...thanks for a great question Sandra

3. you have been married for a long time, what keeps your marriage going?

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I would have to be totally honest and say the fact that my hubby is gone a lot!!! I am not joking either! Absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that... I am blessed because I get to have time for myself.. to explore my needs and develop as my own person.. a lot of women I think wonder if "the grass is greener " on the other side..I get to see that it isn't... I think I have the best of both worlds.. and I truly appreciate my man when he comes home... the homecomings are like falling in love all over again.... thanks for the great question...

 

Answers part 1

1.Lyn would you ever consider coming back to England to live ? Ally
Comment from ally123130585918 - 8/13/06 4:08 AM

Ally,

I wouldn't now. The cost of living is way to high over there. I have  lived over here longer than I lived in UK  and have got used the luxuries ;-)  But my heart belongs over there and always will. If I win the lottery then I would definitely keep a house over there so I could jet in and out whenever I wanted. Doesn't that sound great?? Better go check those numbers...

 

2. what is the craziest place you have had sex?

XO lisa
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Ahhhh Lisa Jo...;-)  I would have to say sitting on hubby's lap while he was driving...yes I was that skinny once...LOL

 

3.What's your best family memory (of your husband and children)?
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hi Christy, You will relate to this one..some of the best memories I have are of going to pick up hubby from a long deployment..the anticipation and excitement while waiting out on the flight path waiting to see his helicopter come over the horizon and then the absolute moment of bliss when he is running towards us and we are all crying the sweet tears of joy that we are all together again....

4.If you could go anywhere in time, where would you go to, and why??

Love Stevie
xxxxx
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Hiya Ste... I don't believe  such a tame question from you.. ;-)  I would like to have a glimpse into the future and see how we have aged..how the kids look grown up, how my grandchildren look etc.. as for living in a certain time period I think the sixties would have been a blast as an adult.. I was born in 1962 and from what I remember it seemed pretty darn cool.. my parents were so happy... the music was great and there was a lot of progress being made in the world...

 

This is fun....can't wait for more.... ;-)

L

Ask me...... Ask me ...........Ask me...........

Yes it really is 4 am. I guess my time clock is screwed up still.  And  I  just remembered that I wanted to get in on the asking questions thing... so go ahead..ask me ANYTHING... I am up for it... and now I am going back to bed...

L

Finally.............

It's me. I am writing this from my own desk. Yes I have a new monitor..it's a lovely 17 inch LCD  ;-)  So I am back...did you miss me?? I sure missed you guys.. honestly..I missed you like crazy. I feel so out of the loop!! I understand we are celebrating 3 years of J Land.. special thanks to Stevie for "nicking" my pic and including me in the video..god love him. 

My trip was amazing. And draining. And emotional. I took loads of pics. They will serve as my "memory" I will of course be posting tons of them. My dad is doing fab. my sister and brother and all my nieces and nephews the same. England was flipping H-O-T!!!!!! Like miserably hot..like soak your sheets at night hot.. I have become a totally spoiled American brat!!! I need my Air Con!!!!!!! Other than the heat I loved every minute. No family fights this time. Although my sister does my head in. I got really really bad news though... my sweet darling bestest friend in the whole wide world..the one I have known since we were 8 years old..the one who knows ALL my deepest darkest secrets has fucking breast cancer..and no I don't care that I dropped the "F" bomb in there... bless her heart..she is my soul mate......I love her and to hear this was hard..BUT I truly believe she will be okay...I am happy I could be there when she had her surgery..we are now waiting for the prognosis.. at the moment we are praying that the lumpectomy will be enough to get it all and then some radiation to be sure..please please pray for Diane...thanks...

 

I saw hubby.. he looks good..we had a good time..little bit weird seeing him over there and not being in our own house etc.. but we had fun..TRUST me  ;-) the kids were happy to see him too... it was all a bit of a whirlwind but good none the less...

Saw a lot of my old friends from school...some old boyfriends..even got a ride home from one of them on the handlebars of his bicycle just like in the old days... lol... I did a lot of shopping.. lots of walking in the countryside...lots of laughs in the pub... spent some time at my Mum's grave...talked to her a lot.... tidied up my Mother in Laws grave too... all in all it was a wonderful two weeks..

As you know we got broken in to... we are almost positive it was the older brother of one of my sons friends.. it was definitely an "inside" job..someone who knew we were not going to be here.. they made themselves right at home..watched a little TV.. went on the computer..even took a shower...and then stole my monitor and a bunch of other misc. stuff... jewelry, my hubby's change ..$500 worth..yea I know ..why did he have so much change?...it was his thing..he loved showing us just how much you could save by just dumping your change out each night... he always cashed it in for spending money when we went on vacation.. <sigh>  But I have to count my blessings..it could have been a lot worse..they could have destroyed my beautiful new kitchen... vandalized the house etc... all they took were material things... YES it pisses me off but I have to let it go and move on or else I will be miserable.. I appreciate all the support and kind words from you guys....

Well that's all for now...more to follow I promise...I am going to go turn my alerts back on and try to catch up.... I am so happy to be back....

L

Friday

Hi guys,

Writing this from work. I should have a new monitor this weekend. The last few days have been crazy. Had to get estimates for the broken window, spent ages talking with the insurance people, had the detectives here...just a lot of hassle really but I am grateful things were not worse and also grateful that I made it back to USA before all the latest terrorist BS. I can only imagine the lines out of Heathrow..it was bad enough there on Monday.

 

I can't write freely here but just wanted to pop on and say hi and let you know I am alive and well and miss you all so much.

 

thanks Ste for thinking of me.. bless ya...

 

have a good weekend and look for a nice long delicious entry from me soon..I promise..;-)

 

L

Sunday

Well well well..clever me found a way to get on my journal..ha! So I am writing this from the UK. It's been a fabulous two weeks..lots of eating ,drinking and general debauchery!! ;-0  You may have heard that my house got broken into while I have been here. We think one of Ryans so called mates who knew we were away. My kind neighbour found where they got in ..ryans window..called me and the police. they have dusted for prints and I intend to get the little bastard who did it..have a good idea who it is. My computer monitor was one of the things taken and so I will be off line for a couple more days when i get back.

 

I have so much to tell you all..it has been a very emotional trip and now I am ready to come home. I will fill  you in as soon as able.I have missed you guys so very much. I hope you haven't forgot me??  I miss my alerts..feel so lonely ;-)

 

Please e mail me anything biggie.. I will eventually catch up I am sure but if there is anything you want me to know email me..i can access email from work. eww... work..god did i say that?? ;-)

 

take care....

Lyn