Good Morning campers!
Yes it is Hump Day.. this week between Christmas and New Years is always a funny one to me.. it's like we are all putting our lives on hold till the New Year gets here and then we can get back to some sense of normalcy.
So I have been in a weird mood. Don't know if it's all the drugs I have been taking for this never ending bloody cold or what but I have been doing a lot of thinking. Sometimes that's a good thing and sometimes not so much. My brain hurts. I'm serious. This time of year always gets me thinking. How can I improve my life? What changes can I make? What do I need to do different? and so on and so on. I am going to try harder to be real for one thing... I mean here in my Journal. I don't share the bad here only the good and that's not for real. I sometimes sugar coat my life. It is not as perfect or happy as I make it out ot be. I am sad a lot. I get hurt a lot. I let people run over me. Yesterday I was feeling very sorry for myself. Here it was Boxing day and I was home alone. Feeling very sick. Hubby went to work for a couple of hours and then went golfing with his buddies for like 7 hours. Came home when the sun went down. True Beauty was at her boyfriends all day. Ryan was round his friends. I drove my sick self to the store to buy medicine. I laid on the couch and rested. I also cleaned up and did laundry. No one called me all day until dinner time. Then they called to ask me what were we eating for dinner. Hubby called me on his way home and wanted to know why I didn't pick up the phone..I was outside getting the clothes off the line...then when he came in he asked what was for dinner..when I said that I had not heard from anyone all day so I didn't know if anyone was coming in for dinner so I hadn't made anything he said I can see your in a shitty mood. I didn't say anything. I didn't want to cause an argument but damn I was sick and he was gone all day and expects me to be all happy about that. I feel like I am taken for granted around here. That's one thing I am going to change. I guess what I am trying to say is that I need to use this Journal for more than just a daily account of my life.. I need to write how I used to write in my paper Journal .. I need to quit editing what I write and just write. So Brits Blog may not always be so happy but it will be for real.
My five....
1. Taking Charge!
2.. The incredible sunrise I got to witness this morning...it went well with how I was feeling..a brand new day and a brand new me...
3... Good nights sleep..even if it was drug induced... ;-)
4.... Hearing from my friend in Texas.. I miss her!
5.....Keeping it real.... ;-)
Have a great Hump day!
L
25 comments:
(((((((Lyn)))))))))))
i write about everything except the truth about my son. Sometimes i worry people think my life is one huge downer but then again, it is my life and i speak the truth. I understand you feeling sad about being alone and maybe like they are taking advantage wondering where dinner is after not being home all day. I love you regardless of what you write about.
XO XO lj
I do the same thing. I dont write the bad.... I guess out of respect for the people that I would be writing about. But your right, it should be more real.
hugs,
Ellen
Good for you! I write a little of both. I tell you, when I write the bad it makes me feel a whole bunch better! There are times to laugh and times to cry. That is real!
Traci
yes, sometimes you just need to get those feelings down I know I keep alot in too and winds up getting worse have a happy healthy new year love vicky
Hi Lyn...Stopping by to say hello, from This is My World.
Thx for visiting my J, as for keeping it real, I say go for it. This is your life, Live , Laugh, Love and Cry a little. Its all good...
PS...I feel a trip to Sears coming on...Die Hard Battery Sale..lol
Have a great day... Riss
Oh Happiness, o... ha-ppi-nessss... yeah... happiness, I could write a book about that, with blank pages :D
Well, my children are similar; they just don't get it when I am feeling down, ill, sick for they are out all day and by the time they are back I just got up and look better. They don't feel how ill I am inside, they are energetic, had a good time and they just see mama who has got their meal ready, put their legs under the table and keep smiling... and they're off. Well, I have from time to time called upon the Take-Away people to deliver those kind of junk food that is the delight of my kids. But now, they are teenagers and I don't care anymore. If they are not able to get over their 3 years old mood and cry for their bottle of milk or make a tantrum because food is not ready, I do not care. I have the right to suffer! and be me. Get your rest when you're ill or it takes longer to recover. Perhaps your hubby could get the meal ready or take you to the restaurant (?)
Valerie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/iiimagicxx/surreality/
A good idea ,get real then suport each other .love Jan xx
Reading different journals you can tell who keep it real and those who gloss over there lives.To me you have to write from the heart if you have a bad day there are people here that will support you, if you have a good day we are all still here laughing, My christmas was awful. my friend spent every waking hour on his pc, leaving me alone and my son was away upset was not the word.
love and hugs
katie
You are woman! LET'S HERE YOU ROAR!!!!
keepinf it real, hey it might not be as nice, but I will not begrudge you for what you write in here, this is your space so if its bragging or bitching I will be here, hopefully leaving a comment that might make you giggle, Hope this new year is all you want it to be and more.
Take care, Missy
I'm all for keeping it real. Real life is not always pretty, or nice, or sweet. A life worth living has it's lumps and bumps, it's ups and downs. Looking forward to sharing your "real" life. Hope you feel better soon and shake this cold.
love,
Marie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/mariealicejoan/MariesMuses/
Hey Girl, thanks for visiting TheGlassBox. I hope you will come back to visit. Stay REAL!!!! Win =.)
I know just what you are saying: many times I start to write something in my journal and then take it out b/c I don't want people to think I am feeling sorry for myself. I think keeping it real is a great New Years Resolution! I should try it myself. I hope you are feeling better today.
Maria
Hello Lyn, I`m sorry you`ve been feeling low lately. Colds don`t help improve things do they? I used to write only good things but like you say, life isn`t like that and I think people get the wrong idea at times. Now I write the not so good things sometimes, it`s more real that way. I hope you feel better soon.
((((((hugs)))))))
Sandra xxxx
I think we all feel like you do more than we care to say. I for one do, my life realy isnt a bag of laughs a day.
Keep it real Lyn, give us the good with the bad babes, we can take it, after all, aint this why we are here in the first place?
Love yas xx
Hope you had a good hump day!
Missie
I agree with you totally on this. I think I worry more about if people will be interested in what I write more than if I am writing how I really feel about things. Or I worry that I am boring people...which I know I do anyway....lol. Good goal...and a hard one!!
Tracie
You just write what ever you want and we will be here reading. We like hearing the good things, but we dont mind the bad so much either other than we dont want you to have bad times!! Does that make any sense?? You know what I mean!
Hugs
Carrie
Hey Brits gal...I am slow on reading journals....but glad you are going to be real....and as for hubby and his "shitty comment"...tell him...he is the cause LOLOLOL....then fix him a can of soup....seerves him right....ungrateful dude....LOL...there now...doesn't that make you feel better???? did me LOLOLOL....and I don't even know the guy....hahahahha...you just be yourself all you want....we can take it....Happy New Year hug to ya special...Ora of KY
Go ahead and keep it real! This is the perfect sounding board for it. I think that my journal comes accross very negitive as if I am so down in the dumps all the time, but its not nearly that bad... I just need a place to bitch sometimes...and J land works great for that. Take care, get to feeling better!
I totally understand. I don't always talk about the bad stuff either. I do sometimes. Like when Becky was having problems. I needed to talk about it. The people in Jland are wonderful and helped out a lot with comments. So go ahead and say what you need to say. We are here.
it feels good to get it off your chest sometimes huh
hope you feel better hun
<3, em
Hello,
You are not alone about what you share in your journal. I also typically only share the good in my personal life, not the bad. When I first began journaling almost three years ago I did, but then the weirdos and the "click" groups came out of wood workd and that ended that! (lol)
J-Land is a community of friends, support, humor, information and much more. And some find it a place of gossip community of one another and that just makes me sad and angry.
I'm sorry you are feeling sad and sad a lot. I tend to be that way from time to time myself. Sometimes it lasts for just a little while, sometimes longer.
And as for everyone taking you for granted: they are! They ALL should have called you and asked how you were feeling sometime during the day and asked if you needed anything; not wait until "dinner time". I would have been furious! I'm sorry that happened to you. You are sweetie and should be treated like one. I have dealt with that crapola here at home more times than I would like to admit.
IM me anytime you want to vent, chat or just laugh it up! I'm right here and even have a pretty cool new camcorder that can also be used as a webcam..LOL :)
Bigges Hugs,
Gayla
http://journals.aol.com/schoolgal040/Unfussy/
PS: Sorry my comment was so long :(
You go right ahead and bitch all you want. I would love to have a nice whine in my journal too! It just isn't enough that you have a Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer nose, is it? Your hubby wanted his &^%$ Boxing Day dinner too!
Love,
Susie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/susanebunn/ItAllStartsAfter50/
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