TGIF and being Jilted....

Good Morning campers!! It's Friday!! woo hoo!! You know what that means huh?? Yep I am off to the beach for the weekend with the girls..we plan to tan, play some cards, tan some more, drink some cold ones, eat junk food and talk our pretty little heads off ;-) I just want to relax, walk along the beach read my book write in my  Journal and enjoy the ocean. I have decided I cannot let the bastard that broke in to my house put me off going away for the weekend.My friend is going to park his car in front of my house to deter people and make it look like I have visitors..I told Ryan if anyone asks where I am to say I am home and driving Lesters truck as mine is being fixed, I can't wait to get my alarm system installed. No word from the detective or the insurance.

Didn't write an entry yesterday. Nothing much going on. Air-conditioning tune up went okay..couldn't find and mechanical reason why the air doesn't seem to be working very well on the kid's side of the house..he said it might be the ducts collapsed or pinched up in the attic but of course that is not part of a routine visit so if it doesn't improve the installation guys will have to come check..Ryans orthodontic visit was uneventful, ran a few errands..that's about it. Got a couple of cute tops and shorts on sale ... can't go away for the weekend without buying something new to wear (looks at Ainz again )

I was reading back in my written Journal last night and decided to share an entry. I don't know if I told you or not but hubby and I were supposed to be married a couple of years before we actually did. This entry was written about that. WARNING. Profanity ;-)

I got jilted. 3 weeks before my wedding. My fairy tale wedding. Complete with white Rolls Royce. Lester worked nights back then on the base in England. I called him up to ask for the gift list (no online registry then ) he said I wouldn't be needing it. I thought he was just kidding around and then he said "no really..you won't need it because there isn't going to be a wedding" and that's how he told me. Over the phone. Chicken shit bastard. After going back and forth with me thinking he was playing some sort of cruel joke I finally hung up the phone in hysterics. my mum was screaming at me.She had overheard my side of the conversation and was starting to panic herself. I told her " he doesn't want to marry me" and left. Walked out the front door. Tears running down my face. I went to the pub looking for my brother. I found him in the bar. he took one look at me and knew. I told a couple of people.I drank a couple of stiff drinks and my brother took me home. Tucked me in bed and and laid on top of the bed till I fell asleep. I shared a room with my sister back then and she was crying. The next thing I knew my dad was waking me up. He worked nights at the car factory. He said he couldn't think of a worse thing that could happen to a girl and he held me in his arms and let me cry. then he got on the phone to Lester and demanded he come round. he wanted "the little bastard" to tell me to my face why he didn't want to marry me. So round he comes. He said he just didn't want to. that we weren't ready. That was it. I thought my dad was going to kill him. My Mum gave him an earful..she said some pretty terrible things. I just stood there in my nightie with my head down..I was mortified about the whole thing. My mum demanded we take all the bridesmaids dresses back that very day. And the rings. the dress I had borrowed. She tried to cancel everything but with it only being 3 weeks away they lost all their hefty deposits.  It was fucking awful dredging around town returning all my stuff. To this day I don't understand why she made me do it. She told all the relatives. There was a big meeting with his parents and they agreed to pay for half of all the money lost. Meanwhile Lester and I clung to each other. We were so in love. We just didn't know what the fuck was happening. One minute we're getting married and the next we're not. I think if he had been given a chance he might have just been having cold feet. But my Mum was just hell bent on getting stuff taken back and all that. Then they told me I couldn't see him any more...ever.

Fast forward a couple of months. My life was hell. I was sneaking back and forth seeing Lester behind my parents back because they "forbid" me to see him. I was staying at my best mates house while her Mum and dad were on holiday. We worked together. she had gone in I was off that day. I was trying to tidy up a bit when I came across her diary... we let each other read our diaries all the time anyway so no big deal but that day for some reason I felt weird. Well my curiosity got the best of me and I opened it.. and then I read the real reason my wedding was called off.. my fiance and my best friend were fucking and had been for months. I can tell you that I honestly felt a physical blow to my gut..like someone had just knocked the living shit out of me. I read on and on..times and dates and places they "did" it.. how they used to drop me off first and then go fuck ...I read it all and then read it all again and then I lost it...I cut up all her clothes...I trashed her bedroom.. I wrote slut and whore and bitch all over the mirrors in the house with her red lipstick....then I called Lester on the phone...only to find I had lost my voice.. I could not physically talk... I guess it was shock.. I sat for 2 hours on the kitchen floor crying and dazed until my voice finally came back.. I told him to come over..and I met him at the front door..with a knife...I scared the crap out of him..(good) he was a lot bigger than me and soon overcame me and then I told him and hit him over and over and over again..slapping him and calling him names and crying and screaming..it was so bad..so terribly terribly bad.... but for him I think it was a huge relief...I finally knew the truth....

 

So there you go... my Jilted entry.. obviously I married him anyway..a few years later...there is so much more to this story but we'll save that for another day...

My five...

1. Time heals all wounds.... ;-)

2.. It's Friday the sun is shining and I am off to have a great weekend with the girls....

3... I may have found someone to do my yard..cheaply...yay! Can I get a pool boy too?? ;-)

4....Jello shooters..will let you know how they turn out....

5..... All of you reading this...have a great weekend....

L