Good Morning Campers!
Did ya miss me?? come on you know you did...;-)
Blame it on the moon phase..the heat..the humidity..the drama at work...the time of the month...all and any of the above but I have been in a foul mood...just plain 'ol fed up... and to be honest I just didn't feel like writing but as with all phases this one too has passed and I am starting to get my game face back on....
Father in Law did well with his surgery..he ended up having his entire thyroid removed..the tumour was too large and attached to his actual thyroid so they took the whole thing out..he will be on meds to regulate this for the rest of his life of course... he has been taking it easy at home all week...
Hubby has been extremely busy with the chief selectee activities..which included an over night stay at camp Blanding (where GI Jane was filmed) this week...he has had two golf tournaments as well..we haven't seen much of each other which is probably a good thing considering my mood of late..;-)
We got rain..lots of it...it is still hot but in the high 80's as opposed to the 100's so it's getting better....I am dreaming of Autumn..of cooler temps and wearing actual clothes instead of my flip flops and shorts....being able to open these windows and breathing in fresh air instead of humidity.... pots of chili..casseroles..beef stew..roasted chickens...I do not want to taste another piece of grilled on the barbecue anything for a good long while...I want to drag out my pumpkins and gourds and my fall decorations...I want to feel that first "nip" in the air... you think I have the summer time blues or what??
Work has been awful..the office witch is up to her tricks again and it has been TENSE...as I always say I don't have to work there and if this B.S. continues I may look elsewhere seriously in the new year..the only thing that stops me now is my incredible schedule...where else will I be able to get 20 hours in in 2 days and have the rest of the week off?? It's all about balance I guess.....
Both kids are back in school..Ryan in 11th grade..so far so good..fingers and everything else crossed for a better year this year..Rachel is finishing up her Associates degree...it is hard to get into the required classes that she needs when you can only go at night..the classes fill up fast but she is almost done..thank god....they are both busy and hardly ever home but Ryan has a 9PM curfew during the school year..I have to enforce that because he has to be at the bus stop by 6.30 am...he needs his sleep...he is still hanging in at Burger king but we have told him no late nights during school and if they can't work with him then he will have to quit till school is out...they are doing their best to accommodate him..he is a good worker....we are trying to plan something to do together this weekend ..we hardly ever seem to all be in one place at the same time anymore and I miss that....
As for me this mood..funk..whatever you want to call it does seem to be lifting...I have been doing some major thinking and reflecting lately and some of my thoughts have been pretty deep...I have done some things lately that I am not proud of...but it all boils down to one thing ..I am responsible for my own actions and I need to own up to that...I need to take control of my life and my destiny...no one else can change me and if I am not happy I need to take the necessary steps to change the things that are causing my unhappiness even if they may be difficult and painful....
I also need to focus on the positives in my life and there is no easier way to get started on that than by listing my gratitude.....
1. my health...
2.. my family....
3... I am loved by so many...some are loved by none...
4....Hummingbirds!! they have finally found their way....
5..... my single solitary sunflower that bloomed..I happen to think it has special meaning... {{{Gretchen}}}
Thanks for all the emails and comments asking if I was okay and where I was..those of you who have been reading me for a while know that I go through these little phases once in a while...it's just me....;-)
42 comments:
Yes I did miss you ,but if you are feeling better now that is good ,imagine being fed up with the Summer ,we have had an awful Summer ,as I expect you know ,keep smiling ...love Jan xx
welcome back.. and yes you were missed. I hope things continue to get better on your end. We all have done things we aren't proud of... we're human. Don't beat yourself up over it...
hugs
d
I reckon your mood lately was caused by such heavy sultry weather. We have had horrid weather but I think I would rather that than the temps you have had.
Angie,x
I'm looking forward to autumn as well. Although, things will speed up here and we'll see less of Paul (he's nearing the end of TPS when all the reports and what not are due), we will have a routine that will be nice. I'm ready for that nip in the air... after two nice days, they are promising us more humidity today..UGH! Estela
I cant wait for fall either. Its always a welcome season!
I hope the "eye candy" I sent you helped to lift your foul mood. I do what I can for friend's you know?!?!?
Why cant things ever go smoothly at work? It's worse than high school with the drama at times.
Big hugs,
Ellen
NEVER EVER apologise for a mood swing! We are women - they are ALLOWED - in fact - they are MANDATORY! But I am glad you are feeling a little better about things. Life gets so mad sometimes that we forget to take time just to think and reflect on where we have been and where we want to go - sounds like you have taken a little 'soul searching' trip and now you are back on track - Good for You! I did miss ya - you always bring a smile to my face. I also totally get the weather thing too! As much as I am a total 'lizard' cos I love our hot summers, by the end I am usually looking forward to wearing a jumper and socks - but as usual, I am now looking forward to burning the jumper and socks and want my flip flops back NOW!!!
Hope you find something fun to do this weekend with the whole family. I love it on the rare occasion we are all home together... who said that??? I must be going mad!!!
Hugs
Wendy in Oz
im with you on the mood, but i feel like my the control of my life is being taken from my hands, my best mate leaving at work, a partner who just gets up and leaves to do whatever he wants when he wishes and presumes ill stay at home with the kids but makes it incredibally awkward for me when i want to go out, i just feel lonely.Anyway enough! im looking forward to autumn too, the golden leaves and stew and dumplings, yum! Take care, Beckie x
I love the fall as well! the full moon had me in a giddy mood the other night! I don't know how or why it effects me that way. It is my ruling planet though!
mood swings can be horrible, going through them here too! they suck!
glad your back!
make it a great day!
Sharon
http://journals.aol.com/buggieboo1/ImASurvivor/
Glad you're back. Hope the black mood lifts quickly now it's on the run. Don't think I'd like to meet you in one of those moods. ;O)
B. x
It seems that alot of us in J-land have the summertime blahs right now . Everyone seems ready for fall. After this weekend I consider fall here for sure.
Those days with our kids get more precious the older they get. Now that mine have all married and gone their seperate ways, I know I try to take advantage of any time I get with them. 'On Ya' - ma
..I did wonder where you were LOL - I hate those moments when moods get the better of us! I too, have been going inward and doing some soul searching. Exhausting emotionally and mentally :(
I hope you get to 'that place' where you wanna be.
Hope also, you get all the family together this weekend and have a wonderful time!
Take care,
Millie :)
http://journals.aol.co.uk/millieukgirl/milliesmessings
Have missed you and glad you are feeling a bit better in yourself. Not been feeling like writing either it must be as you say that big moon. Love Joan.
that line about some are loved by none is very SAD.
I am glad your mood is lifting and things are better for you.....i can just imagine that someone is always coming and going at your house and whatever is going on at work, i hope that witch quits or gets fired!
LOVE, lj
Everyone needs to do some adjustments to stay centered and it is seldom pleasant doings! No matter how rosey our lives look to others, we all have some real bitchy trials to get through and they seem never-ending. I think people our age have had to put up with this stuff for so long that we are just plain sick of it. So whinging is definitely acceptable! I'm glad that the pendulum is starting to swing in the other direction for you now!
Love,
Susie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/susanebunn/ItAllStartsAfter50/
Lyn,
You most certainly were missed!!! Welcome back. And here I was thinking I'm the only one with "silent funks of self reflection". ; )
Wow, I just said to my daughter yesterday "I'm ready for fall, the late Oct. - early Nov. of fall. I'm sick of this heat/humidity." I would have never thought there would be soooo many people on the same page.
I hope all things work out for you, and your mood continues to improve. BTW, I admire you for the curfew you gave your son, and insisting that he get plenty of rest. I think that is what's wrong with a lot of kids in school...they aren't getting enough sleep...a basic that everything else builds on. [Hey, it's true of the adults as well.]
My thoughts are with you, girl. Have a great day!
{{{Lyn}}}
Cindy
I did miss you Lyn, but was thinking that you were just super busy with school starting up again and whatnot. How bad a friend am I not to notice that it was far more than that! :-( I am thankful for your gratitude list for it shows me, my special friend, that you are doing better. (((hugs)))
Marie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/mariealicejoan/MariesMuses/
Hi, sorry about your fil but, fyi my oldest son was born with a non functioning thyroid and takes his synthroid every morning there are no side effects going for blood work all the time sucks though...have a great week love vicky
Lots going on... I would say you would be crazy if you WERENT experiencing some kind of abnormality!
You know God loves you so much and we are both pulling for you. Always!
God Bless-
Amanda
I've been checking on you every night and am glad to 'see' you. I suck at communication so that's as good as I've got right this minute sweetheart. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better and that FIL got through surgery alright. Love you.
Of course I missed you!!! Hope things start to calm down and get better soon!!!! Have a great day!
Hugs
Carrie
We all go through those little "phases", and they usually don't last long. I think they are a necessary part of our life...as you said, they help to ground us! Its so easy to say woe is me, but playing the victim role doesn't solve anything. We need to get up and git 'er done! Kudos to you for recognizing that!
xoxo ~mrya
glad to see you back. take care and maybe you could throw a bucket of water on that witch!
tina
So happy to see you have returned with a wonderful outlook on life - Yeahhhhh!
Love Autumn and everything that comes with it! Wonderful news about you FIL. Hope you enjoy your "Today" and the weekend just ahead! Take care and have fun,
Katie
Just wanted to let you know that I'm one of those people who love you. :) I'm always here. Hope you know that.
You know we always miss you! LOL
Missie
Always miss you when your not around. As for mood funks. This I believe has been one strange, blah summer for a majority of us. I'm looking forward to fall. I live in NY so I get to watch the splendor of the seasons change as well. (Hugs) Indigo
Glad to see you back, have missed you
Mary
I have missed you....glad you are back....Now get out of that funk....
Michele
I've been having my share of funky moods, myself... blehh...
I'll have one of what you're having to get me out of it.... ;-P
~Amy
Thanks for visiting my Journel, I have enjoyed reading your journel, I think am with you on having the summer time blues.....I so love FALL
Veronica
Tonite I was going to write you......... You beat me to it. I have been feeling the same way! Hate it, HATE IT. Glad you are back as you are my favourite lady!
Gaz xxxxxx
I'm glad your back and that you are okay. That mood must be all over because I am in one myself. I'm glad that your FIL is doing okay after the surgery.
Sunflowers are beautiful....glad you had one bloom :)
((((Lynn))))
Gretchen
Lot's of stuff going on in your life. Hope your FIL recovers quickly. Have a nice Labor Day weekend.
Phil
I think everyone does at least one thing every day they are not proud of. You are a good mother, good person, good wife & smart/ funny lady. What more do you want? ;-0 The things you think are so terrible about you? Trust me, others have worse going on, they just ain't tellin' you! ~Mary
Glad you appreciate your lone sunflower... they are pretty cool, aren't they? :)
Russ
So glad the kids are doing well and all is good with FIL and surgery....
I had no idea GI Jane was filmed at that camp....
I totally understand about summer blues. We are eager for fall here in KY too.
So sorry about office witch. I have two of those at my main office.
Hugs,
Lisa
I have not been around much myself recently so i was not aware of your problems. Everyone gets the blues from time to time. I am feeling really miserable at the moment. It is the anti-climax after the wedding and the excitement and then getting ill while in Vietnam and having to miss so much. But I did get to my son's wedding and was part of it. That was the whole point of going all that way. Be positive...I am trying to be. We all do things we are not proud of if we are honest. Don't beat yourself up about it as what is done is done.
Keep your chin up girl and celebrate the fact that you have a loving husband and children and you are in good health. These are the important things in life. Love Conniexx
Hummingbirds have been the high point of my summer. Mine are now leaving. Glad yours are arriving. Their antics will help you out of the funk. --Cin
Hey, I'm glad ur father-in-law is doing better. I will pray for him and his recovery. It's starting to be cooler here too, thank god. It's been in the mid 80's lately but still warm. I'm so ready for fall too. I can understand how work is, I been there before. Everyone has made some mistakes in their life or has done something that they aren't proud of doing. I have made some mistakes as well that I'm not happy with either, so don't feel bad. I love watching the hummingbirds. I think they are so awesome. I'm glad ur doing ok and hope u have a great weekend. ~Franklin~ :)
Hi Lyn, SURPRISE !!! I actually made it today. Things so busy I rarely have the time.
Good wishes to FIL and hope he feels lots better really soon.
I know what you mean about moods, I tend to feel like a rollercoaster just lately.
We all have done things we would rather forget but hey, that's life. Just move on and make the best of things.
I have a very special song I always send to people when they feel that life is on a downer, everyone knows it, just don't hear it often..
Bing Crosby, Count your blessings. It always make me feel very humble.
Anywho, I hope things are well with you and hope to hear from you again very soon.
Love and best
Pat x x x
Hey girlie! I hope you are feeling better after a long weekend. :)
I too am hoping for autumn. As much as I like summer and pool time I love autumn and the crisp air and crock pot meals and sweatshirts and college football!!
(HUGS)
Gillie
Glad to hear your fil's op went well
hugs Jayne
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