Thursday, May 14, 2009

FRUSTRATED!

Good Morning Campers...

Anyone else having trouble uploading photos?? I wanted to post the grad pics of Ryan... I think I posted them last year but they aren't visible on the blog from AOL anymore so I wanted to have them on here..if you remember he had his pics done last year because all his friends graduated a year ahead of him...oh well..I will just have to do it later...I was happy to see that all my pics from my old blog did make it to Photo works when I backed them up before AOL deleted them all...

I have been an emotional wreck this week..for Ryan's senior project he needed a bunch of pics of him and the family through the years...of course any time I go through the photos I get sentimental..to see him from a baby ..with his white blond hair and chubby little face to where he is now all 6' 6" of him is just amazing..it seems to have flown by in a flash....I can't believe he is finally graduating...he came home with his cap and gown other day and that made me get a lump in my throat...all the arguments..the frustration..the having to get up at 5.45 every morning for the last 4 years to make sure he got his butt out of bed and got to school..all the fighting for his rights with his learning disability...the constant complaining from him...my refusal to let him drop out and just get his GED...every second of it was worth it to see him finally graduate...I am beyond proud...I was just as proud of True Beauty but she did not have to overcome the same struggles as her brother and when she graduated she was so involved with her boyfriend that she missed out on all the grad fun...Ryan is way more sociable and making a lot more memories that's for sure...it saddened me then that she missed out on so much and I think her seeing how much fun her brother is having is making her realize she sacrificed a lot by being so tied down so young...and she is still hanging on with this boy..granted she sees way less of him but he is still hanging over us like a dark shadow...but that's a whole other post!! this is a happy post!! My boy is graduating!! YES!!!

Nothing much else to report from my neck of the woods...hubby still does not have any orders...he is frustrated...to tell you the truth I am getting a little tired of us both being home all the time too...as soon as we know what he will be doing I am going to look for another part time job too..I am having a blast being home and enjoying the pool and the yard and getting my house in order and being available to help Ryan with all his projects but I think by the end of summer I will be more than ready to go back to work...

Mothers Day was bittersweet...my day was lovely..I actually went shopping on base because I knew nobody would be grocery shopping on Mothers day and I was right! then I spent the afternoon with my daughter by the pool..and in the evening we all went out to our favourite Japanese restaurant for some steak and shrimp..yum!! I say bittersweet because neither hubby or I have our Mums with us anymore and you can't help but miss them on their special day...what I wouldn't give for just one more day to spend with my Mum and ask her all the questions that pop up that no one can answer but her..to be able to tell her that I understand now why she was the way she was sometimes...to let her see how beautiful her grandchildren are... and how blessed I am and what a great life we made for ourselves out here...and to thank her for everything... just one more day...

Well I have rambled on enough here...I hope everyone is doing well..I was tickled to death to see PP finally posted...;-) I think most people have given blogging up and are twittering on face book these days... ;-) I know I don't write much anymore but I'm still here...

Have a great weekend!

L xx

28 comments:

Jeanne said...

Oh Lyn, I SOOOOO hear you on the whole graduation thing. I have been knee deep in it with Kelly, especially the last month and it is SOOOOOOOO bittersweet. I am so glad she is moving on and living her life and enjoying it all...but I am going to miss all of it...especially HER!!!!!! I can't believe we move her into her dorm on Aug 18th!!!!!

I am SOOOO behind on blogging myself and I have people saying WHERE ARE THE PROM PICTURES?? so I sent out an email with them yesterday. It takes me FOREVER to load them on blogger and I gave up. Facebook is SOOOO much easier for pictures!!

We have switched lives....now YOU are home and I am working my butt off at this new job and I am going out of my freaking mind!!!!! I don't know what the hell I was thinking starting a job NOW!!!

Glad all is well with you and you enjoyed Mom's Day. I was at the shore enjoying the beach and the sunshine....with 15 TEENAGERS!! (LOL)

((hugs))
Jeanne

Jan said...

I cant help thinking frustrated is parr for the course on the blog/journal set up ,no wonder so few of us are just about hanging in there now ! Of course you are proud of your boy, you have every reason to be both your kids in fact ,..love Jan xx

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

Congrats to you son! I'm glad he and you perservered and he did it! This time of their lives seems so emmotional for them and us. It's a big step. Life is never the same again. Our babies grow up so fast. I've had trouble with loading things on my blog. I manage to get one graphic up but then I can't add more and drag and drop them down to where I want them. I know that aol would have it's problems too. Face book seems to have taken away alot of bloggers. I cannot get into it and prefer my journals. Enjoy the time you have left before your hubby gets new orders. It should be a great summer for you.

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

PS have you tried putting the pictures in your side bar??? I did that with mine.

Cindi said...

Congrats to your son!

Dutch said...

Congrats on your son graduating. I know you are so proud. You sound like me when it comes to thinking about your Mom. I have questions about certain things and I wish she was still around so I could ask her. My daughter will be 15 in a few weeks and I swear she spends so much time in her bedroom. She is social and has friends but when she is in her bedroom it is like she is in her own little world. Teenagers! Have a great day.

Angie said...

Reading your blog just makes me feel I'm on holiday full time!

Angie, xx

Monica said...

How fresh it all seems when I hear you talk about searching through the photos for your senior. I wasd also an emotional wreak as I searched for my Ryan's photos. My baby was moving on in life and he grew so fast and like your Ryan so tall!

As for the photos, I upload all my entries and photos through "Live Writer" it's the only way to do a blog entry in my humble opinion.

Wishing you the best!

sober white women said...

I have not been able to load photos for a long time. when we were with aol I could load slide shows, but blogger just confuses me.
Kelli

Ms.Emily said...

congrats to your son!

i also was tied down when I graduated and got married the month afterwards...didnt get to do any of the typical graduation things

:(

happy belated mothers day

ox

Anonymous said...

posting pictures takes a while. The one thing that will make it take longer is if your pictures are over 5 pixels large...you need to resize them in photo shop or paint shop pro if they are bigger than that. You dont want to resize the original though so save a resized one with a different name or an R after the number, thats what I do. Once they are smaller its alot faster. Still this isnt the most idea photo display place is it.

You are just how I will be when my kids graduate! I cant wait to see the pictures!

Saltydawg said...

Ramble on as much as ya want doll, I lover reading all yer rambles.
Gaz xxx

nancy said...

Hi lyn, Congrats to your son.:) Nancy

Anonymous said...

I understand the "just one more day" wish for your Mom, but I think the time you are spending now with your family, HER grandchildren, is a way of giving to her & being with her, now that you cannot do so physically. I believe each wonderful, loving thing you do for your children honors her as well. ~Mary

Terri said...

Congrats to your son!!

Happy belated Mothers Day :)

I passed an award on to you on my "Just being Honest" post...if you get a chance I hope you can play along...

Hugs
Terri

Missie said...

It was bittersweet when Nicci graduated last year, and it was a rough year, but now I get the opportunity to watch her grow in college and become a young, mostly (LOL) mature adult.

I must admit, I have no problem loading pics on blogger. Maybe because i use picassa?

Have a good night.

Bookncoffee said...

No problems uploading today for me. But who knows what goes on in these PC and internet worlds. lol

Exciting about Ryan. I bet you are a little emotional.

I always envy you having the pool. Makes me smile! I'd love it too!!!

Good luck on Hubby's orders!
Sonya

Leslie said...

Hi Lyn hun. Sorry you didnt get to post the pics. Dang blogger lol. I hope you get to post them soon. I would love to see them ;) Aww thats neat the Senior project Ryan has, to gather pics form the yrs that went by. I can imagine that was emotional for you to look thru the pics aww. All the tough times you have had with him thru the yrs with the school issue. Now he is going to graduate it was all worth it huh? I know you are so proud of him. I am sure he is proud of himself and hopefully excited for the next chapter of his life.

When you talked about True beauty
and how she wasnt involved much with all the senior activities and fun before she graduated. It took me back. I was the same way too. I had a bf at the time i was very tied down too and missed out on so much. I really regret that now. Its sounds like things are going well though. Your almost getting bored though, lol. Im glad your enjoying great r&r thoguh with hubby. But yeah as you said your pretty sure once summer is over you will look for another pt job huh? Im so glad too you had a nice Mothers day with the family. I know it was a sad day too as you miss your Mum so much :( Well hun great to see a post from you. I havent posted much either lately, lol I just havent had much to say or in blogging mood really lol. take care hun ttys xo

Senorita said...

Beautiful entry and a Happy Belated Mothers Day to you !

I have problems posting my pics up here on my blog too, so you're not alone.

Traci said...

Great post Lyn. Wonderful that your son is getting his diploma! It means a lot more than a GED! That's for sure.

Marie Rayner said...

Congrats to Ryan on graduating! I remember my baby's graduation several years ago and how happy/sad it was. We do hate to see our baby's growing up and flying the coop. Glad to hear you enjoyed your mother's day! I was thrilled to see PP post as well. I had really missed him! XXOO

Linda George said...

Hi,

Just checking that you are still breathing! Like you, I'm so frustrated with this set up that I rarely visit but Mary wrote to see how I was and PP sent an e-mail saying he'd posted, so I decided to pop in, check up on everyone and do an update.

I know how good you feel about your son, my own struggled with school and dropped out of college and seemed destined as a no-hoper. So when he choose to do a 4 year engineering apprenticeship in the Royal Navy, I knew it would be hard for him. The feelings I had when I went to see him PASS OUT, were indescribable,I even drove down to Devon, to see the parade, with my left foot in plaster, having had a major foot operation the week before! Thank god for automatics!!!

Enjoy your summer off, hope it's a good one

Linda x.

Anonymous said...

READY TO GO BACK TO WORK?? ARE YOU NUTS???

Anonymous said...

Yeah, its so sad that I dont see alot of people anymore that I use to read blogs on.... I had so many that I was reading, and now I am only down to about 5.. I guess I need to get off my Un-IRISH Arse and go find and discover some new blogs to read

Btw, Just a little secret for you but, I use PHOTOBUCKET and WINDOWS LIVE WRITER to post images, Dont rely on that PICASA WEB THING because you will hit your 1 gig limit and wont be able to upload any more images

Btw... I guess you dont luv me anymore I havent seen you come over to my blog since before I changed my domain name on it :( * CRIES*

Even though I might not comment on all your entries, your still in my FEED READER so I get notifications as soon as you update :)

--- Christopher

http://life-accordingtochristopher.blogspot.com/

Anonymous said...

Oh girl...you just ramble all you want...I love it...and congrats to Ryan...HS graduation is a big big step...and may he have the best of all to come in his life!!! and you enjoy your summer...a job can come later...you deserve some down time...hugs to ya...Ora

Sherms said...

I'm with you, I just Facebook folks now. Its so much easier, I'm always on FB on my cell phone. My poor computer barely gets used anymore. I haven't joined twitter and honestly, I don't think I'd find the time. And most of my friends are just on FB so I've no need to join ANOTHER social networking group.

I'm glad you had a nice mothers day. I get excited to think of one day having my own children with Adam. I'm sure that time will come and fly by before I even know it. Time just keeps on moving.

If you want to trade place with me, I'd be happy to. Adam might not miss Florida weather but I sure do. And laying out by the pool beats work any day. Though I can understand that having your husband bored and under your feet every day can get old quick!

I hope all is good, congrats to your son on his graduation! xx

Barb said...

Happy Belated Mother's Day! Hubby & I too no longer have either of our parents. His mother only passed in January. But all our kids were around us all afternoon Sunday so they made it a special day. Happy Graduation for your son. It's been 9 yrs since my "baby" graduated. Sigh. Does your hubby have any idea where he might be going next? My youngest had plans on staying in the Army a lot longer time than he did. Unfortunately life & cheating wives happen. He got custody of 2 of their girls 7 she was pregant when they divorced, claiming it wasn't his. turned out she was his. His ex still has their 3rd daughter, but when she is old of enough to decide I hope she will come live with him. It's a mess. Have a glorious weekend out by the pool. (I am SO ready). LOL
Hugs, Barb * queen b

Linda said...

My twins graduation was hard on me last year too. They were the youngest of 5 and the time did seem to just fly by! They just finished thier first year of college and have been home for over a week now and they are driving me nutty!! LOL!
Mothers Day is the same way for me. It is so hard after your Mother is gone.........