Good Morning Campers!
Bad mood. I was in one yesterday. All day yesterday. Like 14 out of the 15 hours I was awake bad mood. I was evil. I said evil things to any one who dared talk to me. I watched TV for the entire 15 hours I was awake. I went to bed at 6.30pm ..then got back up at 9PM and watched more TV then went back to bed until 7 am. I wasted an entire day. I am mad at myself this morning for doing that.
I was supposed to be at the beach. Well a little storm called Barry decided to dump 5 inches of rain on us..first time it has rained more than an inch since Feb. 1st and of course it is on the weekend Lynda has her beach bag packed ready to go..the first time that True Beauty is off and willing and able to take Ryan back and forth to work..and that hubby actually WANTED to go too... <sigh> Now I am not so much of a whiner that that is what I was sulking about all day..<grin> I said to myself okay this would be the perfect time to go use that Spa gift certificate..call the Spa ..they don't have a Masseuse...plan B shot to hell...it was down hill from there..I got in that "I will just sit here on the sofa like a big fat lard arse and feel sorry for myself" mood and be bored to tears..literally..everything I watched made me bawl...I felt fat..lazy .... unproductive and totally useless...the poor hubby got his head bit off if he came near me..True Beauty offered to go to lunch with me... I shooed her away too...I tell you I was a royal bitch and I know it....
You will be glad to hear that I am feeling better this morning.. I am about to go get showered and dressed and do something positive with this day....hubby got up at the crack of dawn and went golfing..I don't blame him...LOL...
My question is does anyone else ever feel like that? So completely and utterly bored that you are miserable? I was too bored to even read or get on the computer..does that make sense?? It was pathetic and not the first time... is that what depression is like?? I honestly could not shake the mood because I tried..I was giving myself little pep talks in my head but it didn't make a damn bit of difference..I tried to think of the inspiring things I read on here...Marie's entry on the Blues came to mind...I thought about ringing a friend but couldn't be bothered...this morning I can't believe the way I acted....I guess I am over analysizing what was just a bad day..but I would sure like to prevent it happening again...
So anyways..just wanted to get that out of my head and move on....
Hope everyone else had a great Saturday...I am going to list some of my good things because I sure have enough of them in my life to not act the way I did yesterday...
:-(... L
1. My poor suffering family....I don't deserve them....
2.. Fun evening out Friday...happy hour with the girls and then the usual M&M...
3... Rain..we needed it..the fires.. the parched lawns....the water bill..;-)
4.... having the funds to REPLACE the ductwork in the attic..yes folks it has to be replaced..not repaired..more on that later...because this is my GOOD things list...
5..... Being able to vent here...
40 comments:
Don't think it is depression because that goes on day afer day after day with no light at the end of the tunnel. Probably hormones, I just used to say, ok, today i have a pity party but tomorrow i will wake up and be happy. Mostly it worked :-)
Jenny <><
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Oh I have felt like that on many an occasion. It's a form of depression. But only lasts a day. Imagine what's its like if you feel like that for ever?
Gaz
PS I have been sitting here PMSL at a web site Russ mentioned. www.heardinnewyork.com that will get ANYONE out of their depression!
what you described is how i have felt my entire life. You fight just to get up, dont want to exist or do anything, just melt away and never be seen again. Yeah, it sucks.
I am glad you shook it off and i hope today you have a glorious day.
LOVE YOU
lisa
Oh heck Lyn sorry you felt that way yesterday.Oh there are times when i just feel peed off.Its nothing to be ashamed of you are only human Lyn and if you sit your hubby down and explain to him he will be more understanding and be able to help you.Glad you are feeling better today.If it is a recurance as you say it is you'd be well advised to chat to your GP.I got in that state 10 years ago and ended up going to see my GP who diagnosed severe depression.He prescribed anti depressants which i was on for a great number of years and i also had several appointmets with a CPN all this helped me.Then just when it all seemed id never get off them blasted tablets Trish(my wife) walked in to my life and hey suddenly life seemed like it was for living and as time went by my GP decided it was time to wean me off them meds.Since then(2002 when i met Trish) i've been ok.Oh i still have mood swings from time to time.Wouldnt be human if not.But given what ive had to cope with this past 4 months i rekon ive done very well in handling it all.I really hope all this helps you lyn.Don'r suffer in silence holler out and we fellow Journalers will try our best to help you.You are not alone sweetheart.
we have all been there.....damn that barry...lol
so sorry barry ruined your day... but we've all been there trust me. Glad today is better
hugs
d
Yep know where you are coming from days like that happen to the best and worst of us. Glad you feel better today.
Debbie
xxx
Everyone is entitled to have a rotten, no good, bad, lousy, bitchy day once in awhile! The important thing is you snapped out of it! Even I have the occasional day like that. I'm glad you feel better today! Glad you have enough blessings in your life to counteract the blues!
Marie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/mariealicejoan/MariesMuses/
Yep I have days like that not too often but when they do happen let nothing or noone stand in my way. lol At least your ok with the world today,
love and hugs
katie
I'm sure we all have days like that. Glad it's passed now.
Now how can you name a storm Barry for gawd sake? I mean, I'm a Barry and look at me - a little ray of sunshine. ;O)
B. x
sorry your day was so very bad....I have had a couple from time to time....but don't think they were as bad as yours..sorry LOL....but Florida needed the rain...bad timing I am sure...shit happens....we move on to another level...hang tough girl...all will be better....have a happy day today....hugs from KY...(where we will take any and all rain no body wants LOLOL)...Ora
Lyn I think we all have that sort of a day here and there. I've had them more than my fair share after our daughter died and have them here and there 7 yrs later (well through out the 7 yrs since she died).
The day after I apologize to everyone I was mean to, spend a great deal of that following day in prayer, and make the most of the days after being the person God wants me to be!
I think everyone has a day like that once in awhile. Hope today is a better day!
June
Sorry you had a bad day ,but at least you acknowledged it ,know what you mean though ,Ive had them myself ...love Jan xx
Get over it already!!! LOL I hope your Sunday will be a bit less taxing . . . and stay away from that TV! Take care.
Phil
It certainly sounds like you were depressed, but it's good it only lasted for one day. And it also sounds totally out of character for you. If you start feeling like that day after day, I'd start to worry. However, when you mix in the snippy part, it sounds more like a day of good old fashioned PMS.
YES..........I think everyone has days like that. Its ok that you were in a bad mood!! I know I have them anyway. It sux that such a great day was riuned......by the rain.........the much needed rain.....LOL Im just joking with you. Im glad you are feeling better today. Have a beautiful, Happy day!!!
Hugs
Carrie
Wow.. I'm lucky if I can watch two hours of T.V. uninterrupted! I'm a little envious, to tell you the truth! I hope you are having a better day!!!! Think happy thoughts!! :) Julie
Yes, I feel like that a couple of times a year!!
Missie
These kind of days happen in everyones life - I guess yesterday was your turn. Vent away! Glad it didn't roll over into today! Have a happier rest of the weekend!
Take care of you!
Lyn,
My sweet friend the answer to your question is HELL YES!! It doesn't happen very often, maybe a couple times a year. But when it does happen it's exactly (almost exactly...lol) as you described. I personally think it's just part of being a woman OR for myself personally it's menapause coming on slowly.When to worry is when it starts to happen a lot and take over your life.
You are a dear, sweet and loving Mother, wife, friend and a funny as hell gal! Love ya to bits :)). It's ok what happen yesterday and in my opinion: not a dam thing wrong with it. You simply needed a day to be whatever. Grouchy, TV potato, left alone and just left alone! Good for you and please, please don't feel guilty. An apology here and there OK, but you just needed a day is all.
Huggers,
Gayla
Hi !!!!!!! I can't say that I have been feeling bad. I have been feeling pretty good this weekend despite not being able to go camping. I have been waking up early usually I sleep in. The weather is nice today and its still pretty warm. I have been going out on my family's deck and enjoying the weather. I am doing pretty good today. I am sorry to hear that you weren't feeling all that good. I do hope that your spirits were lifted today. Do take care.
Hello Lyn, at last someone else who is in a bad mood today. Anyone who has tried to speak to me today has had their head chewed off more than once. I have no reason at all to feel this way, I just do....grrr! Hopefully we`ll both be over it tomorrow.
Love Sandra xxxx
YES...that has happened to me way too many times to count!! I blame it on hormones...whether its that time of month or not, I just get into a funk, and no matter what I do...I JUST CAN'T SHAKE IT!! You're right, its jus so wasteful, and hurts no one more than ourselves (k, maybe our family!)!!! Glad you're feeling better.
xoxo ~Myra
Oh hell yeah...those days hit me too. I usually spend too much time in the jacuzzi or moping in bed on those days. Sometimes (not always) I can bounce myself out of it by drinking too much coffee. I hate it when I am too distracted to read! That's the worst part of the Evil Cranky days. Glad you are able to vent about it. --Cin
It's happened to all of us. I hope by now your feeling better.
If I lived closer, we'd hang, drink, gossip, flirt with men and basically help you out of that mood !!!
hugs
E.
I have to admit that I do that .... not often but sometimes it just needs to be done to get frustrations out. Yes, I feel rotten after too. Us girls, eh! Hope you had a better day today. Hugs, Tells x
Nah...depression lasts... a day of being a bitch and having fits is allowed for us mom's and wive's every now and again!
be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/
I think everyone has off days where you are just not yourself. I think that is all it was for you. The fact that you recognize you were not on your best behaviour speaks volumes. Glad you are feeling better today!
Gillie
It happens to the best of us hon, we look forward to something, get ourselves pumped up and excited only to be let down and feel dislocated and out of place because we didn't do what we had planned. Glad to hear today is a better day! (Hugs) Indigo
it's ok to get like that, I know we all get in those funky moods. No wonder why the hubby left early in the am, lol. Happy that your in a better mood today. Hugs to you.
Oh geez, yea I get like that!!!! Mostly around the time I start my period! I always warn everyone that I am in a mood so they know to steer clear!
Amy
What you call a "bad mood" is pretty much what I call "normal" for me.
Russ
I had a day like that yesterday - PMT! My lot here know what i'm like and gingerly creep round me lol - It does have advantages though - its the only time in the month that when I 'ask' one of the family to help - I don't get any back chat or excuses!!!!! Downside is, I hate feeling that way but find it hard to control not too! lol
Glad you are having better days!
Millie :)
I felt like that yesterday, Mark was off fishing and I was left to tidy, cook look after baby etc., I get fed up with it ,sometimes I just want to be alone, but when i am I hate it!!Beckie.xx
I am glad today was a better day for you. I would blame it on the weather; when it is dark and gloomy and raining I get cranky too. I need the sunshine to feel good!!
Maria
aw Lyn we all have days like that! sometimes I think rain or muggy weather does it to you...boredom like that sort of paralyses you huh! glad you were feeling better at the end of the entry! lol Linda xx
Oh yes I was in that kind of mood on Saturday when Barry visited coastal GA too! I hope that you are having a better day :)
Gretchen
I get those moods sometimes. They are few and far between, but they make you feel really hopeless, don't they? Don't be too hard on yourself. Maybe it's our bodies saying we need to just shut down for a day and re-charge.
Lori
Sorry to hear that you had the day from hell Lyn. Hope things are on the up
Take care
hugs
Jayne
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